First- We will be trying again to conceive and feel its time to share. Not that we could ever replace or want to replace our precious baby.
Second- We want to celebrate her and acknowledge what she has meant to us. I want to write something about her from now on and use her name.
To answer a question I know that will be asked. No we were not far enough along to know if our baby was a he or a she. However Josh and I followed our hearts. We just felt it was a girl.
We named her...
|Her rock is resting with the other remembrance rocks of babies lost. Put together by a women who suffered her own loss this year, and this was her way of healing.|
Naming Hope was a beautiful but painful moment for Josh and I. We were talking about how we were going to cope and heal through this. A dear friend shared her experience and that she named her baby. We felt this was something that would help us.
As we both kind of asked each other... we both said "Hope" almost at the same time.
We both felt through this that she gave us hope. Hope let us know that we can conceive. Honestly, I'm not sure what Hope's entire purpose was/is. But one thing I do realize is she has one. For the rest of our days her little life is going to touch others through our testimony.
We first wanted to validate her existance somehow. My same friend told me about The Church of the Holy Innocents. They write your babies name in the book. And its prayed over everyday. They then mail you a certificate of life with your babies name. This helped start the healing process.
|Hope's certificate. Not the best quality picture.|
I'm in love with my daughter Hope. Her daddy loves her too.
So as we take this next step of healing on this journey we are at peace. We hurt, we cry, we sometimes question... But we are healing.
Yesterday I received this ...
|This is Hope's heart from A Heart To Hold|
This post is dedicated to my daughter Hope. Who never had to hurt. To suffer in this world. She never had to even cry, be angry. Now she is with Jesus. I know she is waiting for us in Heaven.