Aunt LaLa

Unstable is how I feel. Not in a I might harm myself or others...ok there is one person who I'm having a hard time being around. God and I are working on that. Any way, I'll spare you details [not wanting to sound whiny] but every since God opened the doors for me to share our story it feels as if I have been in a battle.  I'm weary. I'm angry. I'm worried. I'm fearful. I'm insecure. However, I do serve a God who loves me and no, I don't understand all his ways and I'm certain they are far more complex than my mind can comprehend. He is strong He is calm He is peace He is LOVE He is unchanged Where I'm weak he is strong.  I'm thankful for friends and family who are praying for us. We have decisions to make, changes to come and we need his guidance.  Let's encourage one another, is there anything I can pray for you about? I would love to. Darkness is driven out by light. So let's spread CHRI...

So October 15th (which was my 28th birthday) Josh woke me up with blueberry pancakes in bed singing me Happy Birthday!  It was a sweet start to our day.  After getting ready we headed to the park to set everything up and get started with our 2nd balloon release in honor of Hope.  Unfortunately there were several disapointments that morning, it almost as if something was trying to work against what we were doing.  I was really excited to Channel 8 pull up and I was interview again! I've been trying to get my hands on that video, so pray I can. It was aired but I did not know that it would be. So hopefully I can see it. The reporter actually got footage of us praying and the balloons being released.  It was an emotional day, very emotional. It was my honor to release balloons in honor of Hope and all the babies we are grieving for. I'm thinking next year that we will try and have a release on the weekend before or after the 15th. That way ...