Showing posts from May, 2013

Welcome Baby C!

I have a new nephew! Thank you so much for praying for my sister Kim! 
C was born 4 weeks early and he did give us a bit of a scare... but praise God he is well!! 
God is so faithful! 
I'm thankful for the protection of my sister and new nephew! 
Looking forward to meeting him for the first time!

Think about this...

Do you know what I think would be AMAZING!!??

If every couple had to go through pre-marital counseling. I am not talking about a few 30 minute sessions either.

I mean a weekend or workshops devoted to learning how to have a healthy marriage. J and I were so fortunate to go on one of those weekends, and honestly if we hadn't I wonder how healthy we would have been or be now...

We hit some major crisis almost immediately after getting married...

I would like to think that we would still make it to the place we are right now, but I don't know.

We learned some valuable skills that have changed the course of relationships around us, and have definitely altered the way we approach things now.

We need to make our marriage a priority. Do not get so comfortable that you think everything is OK. Stay on guard look for ways to improve.

We are continuing through out life being art work of God, that changes all the time. Do you not think that includes changes (or needed changes) in our mar…

One year ago today my life changed

One year ago today a new season in my life was manifested.

One year ago this morning around 2am we lost our precious baby. Hope would be around 4 months right now had she been meant to stay on this earth.

Even though my heart is broken I feel Gods presence with me today, so strong.

Through many talks and prayers with my God, I made it through these last few days without being devastated.

Through my obiedance I believe God gave more healing to my heart.

Sunday morning was extremely difficult. But I received so much support. Physically, mentally, and spiritually. My sweet friends and family held me hand, rubbed my back, gave me hugs as I stood for the first time as a mom on the stage with the rest of the moms. I can not even begin to describe how much they helped.

I know without their support and God's supernatural strength I wouldn't have made it through.

As I left service I felt a little lighter, a little bit of that dark grief left.

Last night was our women's group. Our …

I would do it all over again

I'm joining Fawn over at Happy Wives Club talking about our marriages. Fawn and her husband surprised their loved ones by renewing their vows. Reading their sweet story made me thing of my Josh. He is such a good man. I remember our vows, and I meant them with all my heart. But I think if I said those vows right now, they would mean even more. Josh takes such good care of me. I would marry him over and over again. I love you Joshua!!

How I am going to "deal" with Mothers Day

Over  the last couple months I have been ignoring that day that comes every May. In my heart and mind I dwelled on occasionally in prayer what am I going to do about this holiday I dread every year (if I'm honest)... this year was going to be the worst.

J and I discussed it many times. I had made up my mind. We were going to celebrate Saturday with our mothers and be MIA on Sunday.

Every person who loves us and is close knows about our precious Hope. Maybe some have even thought on what they are going to say to me, how should they handle me being around, should they get me a mothers day card?

Grief and loss can sometimes stump us and make things awkward.

Here is my answer from my heart.

After much prayer and some counsel with a dear friend... some sweet comments about our baby...

Here is how I'm going to "deal" with Mothers day.

1. I'm not going to just deal with it I'm going to celebrate it. And the women in my life that are my mother's.
2. I'm going…

Feelings... frustration... But its Friday!

I only have 1 week and 2 1/2 days left with my students in the school atmosphere. That's it.

Haven't heard anything definite about my job continuing. So that is frustrating.

I know God has a plan.

This weekend will be difficult. Just wishing I could sleep until next Thursday.

Not sure how I'm feeling about Mothers Day. Very conflicting emotions. I can not believe next Wednesday will be  one year we lost our precious baby. I found a great poem that says what I'm feeling.

I never got to hold you & bounce you on
my lap, I never got to read to you
or watch you as you nap.  You slipped
away so quickly, before I said your name.
And yet I want the world to
know I loved you just the same.

-Anne Peterson
This rings so true in my heart. I loved Hope, I always will. *sighs* Moving on.

Friday Letter's with The Sweet Season

Dear Mother's Day, not sure how I feel about you at the moment. Not looking forward to you.  Dear Hope, I miss you. You will be gone a year next week.  D…

Selfish Pride

God has been doing some amazing things in my life over the last month.

I'm wanting to share all of it with you!!

But even though it is Wednesday I wanted to link up with Marriage Monday over at Happy Wives Club.

I love this weeks article. It goes along with some things God has been shining a light on in my heart. 
I am reboosting my marraige by remembering it is not all about me.  J and I DO try our best to serve one another but there are times when I fail desperately at remembering to serve him. 
I put on him expections of things I may want but sometimes I forget to say, "What do you need from me?"
Before I can fix my marraige, I need to look at my spiritual life and how prideful or selfsish am I being. 
How many times do I pray for others earnestly as I do my own heartache? Am I calling out names of the unsaved?? 
Something to think about... And I think this song says it all!

Staying Hopeful,
Aunt LaLa