Sunday, December 29, 2013

Why do people get married?

This post is part of the Happy Wives Club Blog Tour which I am delighted to be a part of along with hundreds of inspiring bloggers. To learn more and join us, click here! 

This blog tour had me thinking of what I wanted to say about marriage... I look around me and I see some unhappy marriages and I see some HAPPY WIVES :) (happy marriages)

When I see the unhappy ones I wonder if they have forgotten why they got married in the first place? 

I think even a happy and healthy marriage you have those bad days where there is miscommunications, hurt feeling, and unmet expectations. 

I love my hubs, I'm a HAPPY WIFE! But guess what? My Josh and I are human and boy do we fail. 

On those days where it seems we are just "off" or maybe it is a transitional period or what ever life throws at you maybe it would be a good idea to remind your self why you married the man/woman you married. 

First, why marry? Why did you want to get married? We have to start off by wanting to be married right? I'm sure there are those occasional shockers of "Oh my goodness this person is so awesome I want to get married now" :)

It is society that plants in our heads that this is just the next step? Maybe it is your moral values-maybe being physical with someone outside of your marriage is not an option and you just cannot live without the luvin's? :)

If I think back to when I dreamed of finding my "soulmate" which is what I called the person I would marry from the age of 14! I remember having a desire to be loved in a special way. There was this inner desire to be desired... if that makes sense?

Now obviously I could not put that into words at a young age but now I can see that is what it was. 

As I got older, I wanted to be apart of a relationship that promised me I would always have backup. Someone to cheer me on. Someone to always be there.  Always having a best friend. Having someone to always laugh with. 

I wanted some one to understand me like no one else did, someone I had no secrets with. 

Most of all, someone who CHOSE me from everyone else. Who thought "That is her. I want to spend my life with her! She is so great!" Be accepted with no judgment or ridicule. 

These all seem so selfish now to me.. .because after I got married the reasons for staying married changed. 

I wanted to stay married because together we were a team for God and what he has planned for us. We have a ministry together. I want to show a love close to how God loves us here on earth. I believe that is the ultimate purpose of marriage is to give Glory to God. 

I wanted to stay married because I wanted to be all that I wanted for myself to Josh. I want to be his cheerleader, encourager, helpmate, his best friend. I want to be the one the helps him up and the one he confides in. I want to be the one who accepts him without judgment and ridicule.

I LOVE him for him. 

As I re-read this it does seem a tall order? But do you know that I have these things and I am blessed to be these things for my Josh? 

Is it easy? Does it happen all the time? NO. But we do try. We have alot of apologies around here and lots of compromise. We have alot of explaining expectaions. But at the end of the day we hug, we love, we kiss, and we pray. 

It is just like our walk with God, a continuing work in progress. 

I am a Happy Wife and I'm so glad to be apart of what Fawn has done with the Happy Wives Club! And seriously if you are wanting to read an awesome book about marriage, maybe your needing some encouragement for your relationship go order her book!! Promise you won't be disappointed!

Love 
Aunt LaLa

Fawn Weaver, the founder of the Happy Wives Club wrote a book about the best marriage secrets the world has to offer. They say the book is like “Eat, Pray, Love meets The 5 Love Languages.” I say the book is inspiring. You can grab a copy here.

 

Monday, December 23, 2013

Merry Christmas from Aunt LaLa

It is here!! Can you believe it? Christmas is here! I love Christmas, I always have. Christmas was a magical time on my family. I love the lights, the giving hearts, the love, the songs, the warm fuzy feelings, and most of all celebrating the birth of my savior!! Found in the book of Luke... I love reading this story with Josh. It is our own celebration...even though you may hear it or maybe sound just routine.. He truly is the reason for the season!!  You can read about him in Luke 1 and 2

26 God sent the angel Gabriel to Nazareth, a town in Galilee, 27 to a virgin pledged to be married to a man named Joseph, a descendant of David. The virgin’s name was Mary. 28 The angel went to her and said, “Greetings, you who are highly favored! The Lord is with you.” 29 Mary was greatly troubled at his words and wondered what kind of greeting this might be. 30 But the angel said to her, “Do not be afraid, Mary; you have found favor with God. 31 You will conceive and give birth to a son, and you are to call him Jesus. 32 He will be great and will be called the Son of the Most High. The Lord God will give him the throne of his father David, 33 and he will reign over Jacob’s descendants forever; his kingdom will never end.

Lawson Christmas tree '13
O and E ready for the light show!

J and LaLa with 2 of their favorites

Pixel getting into the Christmas spirit


My sweet cousin and her husband sent us a beautiful ornament celebrating our angel

Merry Christmas!!
Love, 
Aunt LaLa

Tuesday, December 17, 2013

2,190 days

As of December 1st it has been 2,190 days of being married to my best friend. On December 1, 2007 I was blessed to become a Mrs. to one of the best people I know.

6 years we have been on this journey. I love how one of my friends described Josh and I's relationship

We have had "quite the love affair"

Which is so true. We  have a passion for one another and a longing to be near one another. I miss him when I'm not with him.

I told him last night when we are apart I feel half of me is missing.

We have faced some hard times. We have been jobless...We have lost....We have been betrayed...

Everything we have been through we have gotten stronger. We are far from perfect. We are selfish at times, forget to pray together, we lack in encouraging one another...

However we are passionate about being better. And truly being an example of what God wants marriage to look like.

Here are a few reasons why I love my Josh...

He always kisses me bye, even if it is just to go into another room

When I'm anxious he is patient and tries to do his best to offer support, he always prays with me

When I'm upset he hates it and tries to fix it

He doesn't let me sit in my pity party

He is so positive!

Sometimes he is a big kid, just like me :)

He loves card tricks lately, so I have my own personal show

He pretty much never tells me no :)

I love that we can talk just by looking at each other.

He loves my family as much as I do

He is the best uncle

He has done kitchen duty almost the whole 6yrs of marriage

He has supported me in everything I do

He gives me great bear hugs

He can pick me up :)

We always laugh together

I could go on & on...

I love you sweetness!

Love,
Aunt LaLa



Friday, December 13, 2013

Heavy Heart

Not really the first post I wanted to write after Thanksgiving, but it is on my heart. It is so upsetting that again we are watching a shooting at a school in Colorado. 

I just do not understand what is going on and why? I know there are several opinions politically and otherwise of the reasons. 

I cannot stop thinking about the shooter today who was a student. I hate what he did, I hate that his actions wounded two other students, I hate that his actions caused these parents and students to experience such a tragedy... 

But I DO NOT hate the shooter. What was going through his mind? Why did he do this? What was he thinking right before he took his own life? 

My stomach is sick, sick with the thoughts of the shooters family and his friends... or anyone who has contact with him... thinking what could I have done? Did I do enough? 

It is just sickening... 

I read on a local news station on Facebook that when they announced that the shooter killed himself there were comments of "good" "why did he have to kill himself, could he not face punishment?" "great another opportunity to gun control" 

Are you kidding me? Where is our comapassion? Where are the people who could have reached out more to this student? 

My heart just breaks... 

I'm thankful that is was not as bad as it could have been. I'm thankful that only 2 were wounded and non have lost their lives besides the shooter. 

I'm praying hard for these families and the families of the Sandy Hook tragedy. Those of past tragedies like columbine. I know memories have to resurface. 

Hugging my family extra hard today. 

Love 
Aunt LaLa

Thursday, November 28, 2013

Happy Thanksgiving '13

Happy Thanksgiving to you! I hope you know how thankful I am to know each of you through this blog world! 

All my love,
Aunt LaLa



Tuesday, November 26, 2013

Good Intentions

I had intentions of writing a post for everyday this week to talk about what I'm thankful for 
I had intentions of cleaning my house today 
I had intentions of finishing up my presentation and paper 
I had intentions of starting a new devotional I had intentions of so many things.. 

But I have not done one of them!

 I love this time of year! The family, the celebration, the food, the laughter! 

I'm thankful for my family! 

 We are a loud bunch and there are always awkward things being said. We laugh at each other and poke fun at each other! 

It is great! 
I love everyone of them! 

Here are a couple of pics of the crazies... 

Mom



My aunt and grandmother... um yeah.. LOL

My cousin and I

My nephew and I

Little stinker told me to close my eyes and make a face...

Monday, November 18, 2013

Wife After God

I started following Jennifer at Unveiled Wife early this year.

I love her desire and passion to help marriages. When I got married I was fortunate enough to have some what of a realistic view of marriage. I knew it would be work, but honestly I never imagined the struggles, arguments, crisis we would face in our marriage. 

I truly believe that the enemy tries to isolate us and make us feel we struggle alone. He has tried so in my grief. 

Any one who knows J and I know that we have a special love, we are each others help mates. When God created each of us, when we were in our mother's wombs, we were meant for each other. 

I do not think that our society promotes happy marriages, it does not promote the marriage that God wants us to have. 

I love journaling and devotions... obviously. 

Jennifer wrote a devotional called "Wife After God".  I wrote Jennifer and told her I would love to do a book review for her devotional. I was so excited when I got the email with my copy of the devotional.

It is a 30-day devotional that I have dragged out for now almost 2 months. I will tell you why, this devotional has given so much food for thought. I went into this with my expectations high, I always do when it comes to devotionals. 

I look for words of wisdom that challenge in my personal walk in Christ. 
Realistic applicable message
Devotions that are parallel with the word of God
Word of God being the foundation of the devotions

Let me tell my expectations were met and went beyond!

I have been challenged as a woman of God in every aspect not just being a wife. Honestly if I was not a wife there is so much potential for change.The scriptures are so embedded in this devotional and it is applicable. Having a challenge for each day which I loved... it was a challenge that I could obtain.

One of the other aspects I loved was there is a social media implementation which I loved! Another was the journal questions, really challenging me. Made me think and look at myself, & how I could be  a better woman of God. 

I cannot promote this devotional enough. It truly changed me. Through this book, God has shown me so much. I am better for it. It has made me appreciate and love my husband more. My walk with Christ is better.

I recommend you buying this you can read more about the devotional HERE and purchase it HERE

I know that I will be purchasing a hard copy for myself, as well as a couple of Christmas presents.

Thank you so much Jennifer for you passion and caring enough about marriages to write this devotional! 

Love 
Aunt LaLa


Tuesday, November 12, 2013

Is it my turn yet?

I think I've asked myself this question many many times.

My sister is expecting again. She will be having my nephew Mason in April. I have not met her fiance but she seems to be happy, and I'm happy for her. I know that God has a plan for each of us...

But honestly this broke my heart. And maybe I should not write about this but it is how I feel. I know my sister would understand if she read this. She has lost a baby, my nephew Ashton. She lost him in 2008 and it was heartbreaking. She was about 4/5 months when Ashton passed. Thankfully she has been able to carry JJ and Cayden ,not without difficulties, but they are healthy.

Now, I say all that to say I cannot say I was not heart broken when I found out initially she was pregnant. Honestly I was angry at God.

However, in the last few weeks I have worked on processing all of this and talking it out with God. I have to keep reminding myself what God has shown me.

1. I do not know what God's plan is for my sister, her fiance, and the kids. I have not idea what amazing plan he has for little Mason. It is not my decision what should and should not happen.

2. God has a unique plan just for J and I. It is uniquely created for our good with the best for us. So I MUST continue to trust in the ONE and only that can see the WHOLE picture.

3. J and I have actually have a plan and it involves waiting on trying to conceive. We feel it is a much better plan. Somehow the desire in my heart overrides my mind. We are not preventing getting pregnant. However we are not aggressively trying.

Since I know people are wondering and have asked what is the update on whether we are trying, not trying, adopting...

I know there are several who are praying for us and trust me we feel them. Even though we have a plan we still grieve our Hope and struggle sometimes with wondering if/when we will be parents.

I graduate in May 2014. Which is not that far off! After I graduate and hopefully have a secure job we will meet with our doctors and schedule to meet with a fertility specialist and get us both thouroughly checked out. At that point we will decide if we will continue through with IVF or another form of treatment. I do not think I can handle failed treatment or another miscarriage. So it really depends on our doctors findings.

If we decide that having a child biologically may not happen we will then begin to raise and save money to adopt. Our hearts are in-love with the thought of adoption we just do not know if it will be sooner or later that we adopt. But it will happen.

I think this post is long enough... Hope you all have a great rest of the week!

Love
Aunt LaLa

Monday, November 4, 2013

Unexpected

Life is full of things you can never prepare for.

We all make plans, goals, dream about the future...

In reality, we do not know what is going to happen tomorrow or in the next moment.

When the enemy drags us down and keep us in the dark places of bitterness, anger, discontent, depression, grief, negativity... we miss out.

We miss out on laughs and good times because we are so consumed with our junk. Do we really want to live like that?

I do not.

But have you ever noticed how easy it is to get to that place and stay there? How it is so hard to get back that happiness? Ever sat down and thought about that?

Maybe I am a different breed (smile) but I think a lot. I'm super aware of my decisions and emotions. Most of the time that is not a bad thing, but when I allow myself to get in those previous mentioned dark places it is certainly NOT a good thing.

There has been so many words of wisdom I've heard over the weekend.  Through other women and through the Holy Spirit speaking to my heart.

Some I like list  and bullet points. It is always my go to when I need to sort things out.

So here are some things I've realized over the weekend and what I'm holding onto through this stressful season.
  • When I'm feeling so down, depressed, overwhelmed - I need to ask myself how much scripture have I read? How much am I talking with God? Our bibles are full of living word. 
Hebrews 4:12 "For the word of God is living and active and sharper than any two-edged sword, and piercing as far as the division of soul and spirit, of both joints and marrow, and able to judge the thoughts and intentions of the heart." 
Scripture DOES all of this! It also shines light into my soul!
Psalm 119:105 "Your word is a lamp to my feet And a light to my path."
  • In these times of uncertainty and feeling a little forgotten by God (he never leaves us or forsakes us Joshua 1:9). This is where our faith comes in. Faith is not seeing. We must hold onto his word and promises. Trusting him with our lives. 
2 Corinthians 4:18 "So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
2 Corinthians 5:7 "For we walk by faith not by sight"
  • Lifelines- I went to a women's meeting over the weekend. The theme was lifelines. When you think of a lifeline what is the image that pops into your head? This is what pops in mine now---->
We have people in our lives who love us. We have people who are in our community that will help us. Sometimes we get so caught in being that lifeline for people (I'M GUILTY) we forget to reach out. Some of us have this thing imbedded in us to help EVERYONE, be there, be encouraging, be strong... but sometimes we need the encouragement, the hug, the prayers. The enemy does want to see us reaching out to our peers for help in prayer. Because guess what? There is power in numbers and there is power in prayer!



 Matthew 18:19-20 "Again I say to you, that if two of you agree on earth about anything that they may ask, it shall be done for them by My Father who is in heaven.For where two or three have gathered together in My name, I am there in their midst."
Hebrews 10:23-24 "and let us consider how to stimulate one another to love and good deeds, not forsaking our own assembling together, as is the habit of some, but encouraging one another; and all the more as you see the day drawing near."
Here is a great LINK to more scripture about prayers!! 

I know this is lengthy but I felt I needed to share this. Be encouraged!! The things we facing are only for a season, and with each step God is with us! We are victors through Christ!

Love, 
Aunt LaLa



Monday, October 28, 2013

Unstable

Unstable is how I feel.
Not in a I might harm myself or others...ok there is one person who I'm having a hard time being around. God and I are working on that.
Any way, I'll spare you details [not wanting to sound whiny] but every since God opened the doors for me to share our story it feels as if I have been in a battle. 

I'm weary.
I'm angry.
I'm worried.
I'm fearful.
I'm insecure.

However, I do serve a God who loves me and no, I don't understand all his ways and I'm certain they are far more complex than my mind can comprehend.

He is strong
He is calm
He is peace
He is LOVE
He is unchanged

Where I'm weak he is strong. 

I'm thankful for friends and family who are praying for us. We have decisions to make, changes to come and we need his guidance. 

Let's encourage one another, is there anything I can pray for you about? I would love to. Darkness is driven out by light. So let's spread CHRIST love and praise God for what he has done for us not being bogged down by what we THINK is best. 

Love,
Aunt LaLa

Monday, October 21, 2013

Hope's Balloon Release II

So October 15th (which was my 28th birthday) Josh woke me up with blueberry pancakes in bed singing me Happy Birthday! 

It was a sweet start to our day. 

After getting ready we headed to the park to set everything up and get started with our 2nd balloon release in honor of Hope. 

Unfortunately there were several disapointments that morning, it almost as if something was trying to work against what we were doing. 

I was really excited to Channel 8 pull up and I was interview again! I've been trying to get my hands on that video, so pray I can. It was aired but I did not know that it would be. So hopefully I can see it. The reporter actually got footage of us praying and the balloons being released. 

It was an emotional day, very emotional. It was my honor to release balloons in honor of Hope and all the babies we are grieving for.

I'm thinking next year that we will try and have a release on the weekend before or after the 15th. That way more are available to come. 

So here are some photos that were captured.


In Memory of Faith

In Memory of Ashton, my nephew.

In memory of my tiny cousin Owen

In Memory of a precious little princess Mattie

In Memory of our precious baby Hope


Me being interviewed

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W e love you our sweet babies.



Monday, October 14, 2013

Hope's Balloon Release

Tomorrow is the day. Hope's 2nd annual balloon release.
The day we remember all the babies lost. Ones we have got to hold, carry, love, even the ones we didn't get to meet face to face. 
They are all equally important and missed. 

I wrote an article for Happy Wives Club titled Happy With My Family of Two

God knew excatly when this needed to be published what wife/women needed to read it. Infertility, loss, PCOS are HARD journey's to take. 

Last year I fought hard to enjoy life again, very hard. I had to make a choice and this article talks a little about that. I had to embrace our family of two. 

Just to clarify, J and I are completely open to adoption or what ever avenue God sees fit to give us a child. This article was not saying I'm just excepting no children... ever. I am saying I am not going to stay in that place of want-desperation-depression-anger-jealousy- and so on. What quality of life would that be? 

My heart aches everyday for my baby, but I've decided to do something active. To advocate for women who have lost their babies, who struggle with infertility, who have PCOS. 

Tomorrow will be an interesting day. It is my birthday, I will be 28. However most importantly I get to honor these babies and I can not wait. I am excited because I get the opportunity to express my love for Hope and honor her life as short as it was. 

If you have a name you would like me to write on a balloon and release it for you please comment here or email me at auntlala25 (at) gmail. I would be honored to do that for you. 

Please keep us in your prayers tomorrow. It will be an emotional day. And pray that the women who come start on their journey of healing. 



Love,
Aunt LaLa

Thursday, October 10, 2013

WVLT Interview

So at 5:45 J and I pulled ourselves out of bed and waiting anxiously for my interview to be shown!

Then there it was, I have to be honest I was nervous, excited, and even though I'm celebrating Hope my heart was hurting.

I'm so thankful for the support I recieve from my husband, family, and friends. I pray that the 15th at the balloon release there will be peace and a step toward healing for other women.

I feel many mixed emotions right now! One of them is excited, I know God opened this door and I cannot wait to see what he is going to do in Josh and I's lives.

Here is to my sweet baby, I love you Hope with all my heart.


In the video I show my heart. This heart is from A Heart to Hold. They are an amazing organization. Their mission is:
To offer comfort to families who have experienced pregnancy and infant loss by creating and sharing the gift of a weighted handmade heart.
I love my heart and it stays close to me. I'm so grateful to have recieved it. 
The certificate I show is from The Shrine of The Holy Innocence. I took this from their website:
Often children who have died before birth have no grave or headstone, and sometimes not even a name. At The Church of The Holy Innocents, we invite you to name your child(ren) and to have the opportunity to have your baby's name inscribed in our "BOOK OF LIFE". Here, a candle is always lit in their memory. All day long people stop to pray. On the first Monday of every month, our 12:15pm Mass is celebrated in honor of these children and for the comfort of their families
Hope's certificate sits in our house where I can see it everyday. 

What a roller coaster of emotions today.... 
Love Aunt LaLa

Wednesday, October 9, 2013

Moving Forward

Finished my interview this morning! It will be aired tomorrow morning in the 6am hour on WVLT Local 8 news. I will make sure to post the link on here and on my Facebook page as well.

What a journey that God has taken us on. When I wrote the First post about Hope, it was such difficult day.

I've went back and read that post and remember the paralyzing grief I felt. There are no right words to express my gratefulness that I can now function, and the pain does not take my breath away everyday.

I can be honest in saying that almost a year and 1/2 later my heart is still hurting. I am not sure you ever stop hurting but as cliche as it sounds time does heal. It is OK that I have good and bad days... grief is like that. It can hit you all at once and not even see it coming. Then there are days like today where I feel empowered because of what I have been through. I want help others process all of this, and be able to learn myself through others.

I am so incrediably grateful to be able to share our story in this interview and most of all raise awareness for these precious babies that we have lost. I'm excited to be able to release balloons in honor of our children that we all miss and grieve. 

One of the questions I was asked today that no one has ever asked me. 

Will I continue to participate in Pregnancy and Infant loss awareness and honor Hope when we have other children?

My answer is yes. I think that in this season of my life I'm going to be able to use this platform to help others deal with the grief and trauma that can in-fact cripple you. When we have other children I am not sure what that will look like for that season but I will never stop standing behind this cause.

For the rest of my days on earth I will celebrate our Hope until I meet her in Heaven and love on her. My heart aches for that day. 

This has molded me. I am not the same women I was last year, actually I am not the same women I was in January.

I am excited to see what the Lord has in store! You just never know... 

I am moving forward with what the Lord ask me to do. Josh and I are willing vessels and want to be where God puts us.

Our balloon release will be at:
Adair Park
1807 Adair Drive
Knoxville TN 

We will begin at 12pm October 15th

If you would like to attend, we would be honored to have you. Please bring your balloon that you would like to release. I will have markers to write on the balloons if you wish. 

Here are the links that I mention in the interview

Love 
Aunt LaLa

Friday, October 4, 2013

Wow Moments

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What a day! I never in my dreams thought that God would open the door he did today!

First, there is nothing locally supporting Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month or any one doing something October 15th for the Pregnancy and Infant Loss Rememberance Day that I can find. 

So, J and I decided that we would put together a balloon release in honor of Hope. (If you are interested in attending or would like a balloon released in honor of a precious one then please feel free to email me auntlala25 at gmail - or comment) 

This morning I seen a post from a local news station trying to find out if there were any breast cancer awareness activities going on. I posted that this month was also Pregnancy and Infant Loss awareness month as well. She asked that I email her with more information about this. And I did. 


So WOW part is they want to interview me! I will be able to share our story and spread awareness!! How amazing is that!?? They will also share what time our balloon release is.

This scripture is one of my favorites. I have no idea what this is going to lead to, what doors will open, and most importantly what lives will be changed. As of right now I have only family joining me, but I'm hoping that others will come and hopefully find some hope and peace. 

More than anything I want God to get the glory for this and I want to see people reached. This is such a difficult thing to go through but I know that GOD is GOD and he has a plan. I may not understand it, some times I get angry... but as he reminded me several times this week... His ways are NOT my ways. 

With that please pray that I say what God would have me say and there are hearts mended through this. Even if it just one heart that finds peace with their loss it is worth it. 

Love 
Aunt LaLa

Thursday, October 3, 2013

I am 1 in 4


October is Pregnancy and Infant loss awareness month. 

1 in 4 woman suffer with this pain and grief everyday. 

When we lost Hope, I truly thought I would die. It was my worst nightmare. 

I have had some really bad day and some really good days. 

Yesterday was a bad day, but today is a little better. 

I have clung to my faith through this and want to extend a crying shoulder, a listening ear that needs it. 

Honestly some days it seems that God has forgotten me, I know he hasn't because his word tells me he will never leave me... but it is some days I get down but he always gives me strength to move through. 

I needed and need people to recognize our Hope, she was real and we love her. 

I know I will always carry Hope with me.

No matter where I hear the word Hope I think of her. 

I'm going to have a balloon release again this year. It will not be as formal as last year and I'm hoping to work on a actual walk and service for next year. 

October 15th is the nationally recognized day for our babies!

If you have never watched the video please watch it. 

Click this link http://www.october15th.com/transcription/ and click watch video. It needs to be viewed with Windows media player. 

Today I just wanted you to know I'm here, and I will not say I understand because all of our experiences are different but I can relate to the pain and grief. Do not be ashamed. Open up and start healing.

Love
Aunt LaLa

Monday, September 23, 2013

Burntout

I'm not sure where, who, what...I've never been here in this season of my life.

I've never been 28 (almost)
I've never been a college graduate (almost)
I've never been so confused about what to do with my life... 

Frustrating to say the least when I feel like totally abandoning all my plans because they are just not what I want anymore as far as career wise and my education. It is just seeming a little overwhelming. 

I've aspired to be this great blogger, but I have not blogged like I've wanted. 

Honestly getting on here talking about my soul searching has not really seemed appealing to me. I guess because I am not sure what to write! LOL 

I have had everything planned out... but my parents were right it seems, the older you get the less you know or have figured out. 

I keep thinking about graduating. What will I do with my life? What do I really want to do? 

I've always struggled with the what I want to do compared to what I SHOULD do? I usually have a overwhelming conscientious personality... and lean toward the should.

I should be content in my job right now. But I am not. There is just something stirring in me that wants change. Does that make sense? 

It has everything that in retrospect I've wanted to do.However it is not a job I would stay at forever. 
1. It has to be renewed every year and I'm only approved for through May
2. No benefits
3. Not full time

But it does pay decent. But money is not something I'm willing to base my life on. 

Now I'm rambling :) 

As you can see I'm conflicted!! That is not even touching the iceberg with my education. Do I continue or do focus on my career without going to graduate school?



Enough complaining! I'm truly blessed with so much. I'm a rich woman indeed. 

 I have an amazing husband, family, and friends. God has been so good to me. I know he will help me and lead me. 

Please be in prayer for my friend S her mother is fighting cancer, they just found out this past weeks. They need God's touch. 

Happy Monday!

Aunt LaLa

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Italian Romance




I've been doing this fabulous devotional that I cannot wait to share with you all. 


It has challenged me as being a wife for sure. I decided that I wanted to show my husband extravagantly love. I work hard to love like Christ would, but sometimes I think as wives we forget our marriages are to be examples of the love of the church and God. 

I was just really inspired to do something for my Josh.... 

An Italian Romantic Dinner. 

Now, I'm not a Paula Deen, Emeril Lagasse, and others... 

I do have some awesome recipes passed to me and I can be inventive :)

I decided to make:
"Poppie's Italian Chicken" 
Cheddar garlic biscuits
Italian salad

I created the "ambiance" 
Josh took this one. I forgot to take one of the table with food or before! LOL 
Poppie's Italian Chicken
  • 1 cup of miracle whip
  • 1  bottle of Italian Dressing
  • 4 Frozen Chicken breast ( I used 3 this particular night)
  • Marinate chicken in 1/2 bottle of Italian dressing (I marinated the chicken while we were at work)
  • mix miracle whip and other half of bottle of dressing into a bowl. 
  • Heat oven to 425
  • Remove chicken from marinade. Place in a deep pan. Pour mix over chicken.
  • Cook chicken until desired crispiness. 











Italian Salad
  • Lettuce
  • Parmesan  cheese
  • cucumbers
  • Italian dressing
  • onions
  • Whatever vegtables you like- tomatoes, olives, ect. 





 Cheddar Garlic Biscuits
  • Buy cheddar garlic biscuit mix and cook accordingly :) Hard right?? LOL










To finish off the dinner I turned on some Love songs :) 

Josh was so surprised, and he felt so loved. He just kept telling me how much he appretiated it. We even fit a slow dance in there, it was a beautiful date night just us at home. 

Investing in our spouses is worth the effort and time. Do something today to make your spouse feel loved!  

Love Aunt LaLa 

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Wednesday, September 18, 2013

Easy Canvas Prints Giveaway!

Hello my fellow bloggers! To celebrate this new season of getting back into the swing of things, and thanking you for sticking with me, we are having a giveaway! 

I was connected with Easy Canvas Prints through another blogger. I had the opportunity to review their product. 

I received a 16x20 canvas, and I LOVE it! I have always admired canvas prints and now I'm excited to have one of my own!

Easy Canvas Prints was so easy to use! The website was very clear and user friendly. 

I love that I was able to see a preview while designing my canvas. There are several options to how you want your canvas designed! Here is a picture of my canvas: 


I love how it turned out!! 

I think my favorite part was when I ordered this picture there was a problem with the resolution and I was notified before my print was made. They sent me a file telling me how to make sure that this resolution will work. That was great! The problem was resolved quickly. 

Way to have excellent customer service! 

So guess what!? You have the chance to win a FREE 8x10 canvas with FREE shipping! All you need to do is complete the form below!! Isn't that exciting!? 

So go for it! Win that canvas!


**All these opinions are my own. I was received a product to review with an honest opinion on the service and quality of Easy Canvas Prints**
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