Friday, March 29, 2013

He died for me...

What does Good Friday mean to you?

To me it's a holiday that comes before Easter. Honestly I think that it is so great that we have a seperate day to celebrate our Christ crucifixtion and his ressurection.

But I live my life with Christ sacrifice in my heart. I'm reminded everyday because of his ressurection I can go to into his throne room and worship him! I can ask for forgivness right where I am with out having to wait for once a year to have a high priest pray over me and sacrifice an animal... to shed the blood to make me pure again...

When Jesus died for me and for you he shed his blood... the blood that makes us new. We are alive in him! We are saved through him!!

Me, someone who fails everyday. Ignores God when he wants to talk to me. Sins when I know I shouldn't. Gossips. Lies. Doubts. Loses my temper.  ALL this and I was HIS passion!? God gave his son up for ME? Christ wanted to die for me?? I am that Loved?

I just don't think I could put into words how amazed, in awe, grateful, underserving I feel to my Lord Jesus...

I hope everyone has an Easter as never before... may we fall on our knees and give him our all... He gave HIS
Staying Hopeful,
Aunt LaLa

Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Sickness, car accidents, and a final

Weeks like last week are why I am glad that I have an amazing husband. Because when life happens my Josh is there!

Wednesday I woke up with do much pain in my face I was in tears. My stuffy, semi cold had  havoc in my face er sinuses. Oh my lord... I have never had my sinuses hurt like that. The Dr. told me it was a.sinus infection. Prescribed some STRONG meds... I went home and slept...

So Thursday I was isn't so much pain. Did some school work. Mom brought my niece and nephew over right when I finished my paper! Timing was great I needed a break. Mom leaves and I begin to try and study. Then I get a phone call that sent my heart up to my throat. My mom calls and said someone hit her and the kids and took off. Josh and I in about a minute left. J to get my dad and I went to my mom. Praying the whole way and thanking God that no one was hurt. The kids were OK, mom was hurting.

After getting there the police had just left to pick up the girl who hit mom. I help everyone inside "order" my mother to just sit until dad can get there. She was hurting so bad, I made the executive decision that dad was taking her to the hospital. My brother was on the way to get the kids. As soon as dad got there I had only been there right under an hour and had to leave.

Leave? Yes, leave. I was supposed to be going to my last class where I was taking a FINAL! Yeah, the little studying I did, the wreck,  my speeding... was not for a good testing environment! WOW!

Do you want to know how great my God is?

He protected my family
The police were able to find the girl who hit them
I have an amazing husband who assured me he wouldn't leave our family until everyone was OK
And I made a 82.3 on my final!!!! YAY!! That is a miracle my friends.

On Friday night all the stress caught up with me. J and I talked forever and then we prayed together.

Its weeks like this that make so grateful to have a spouse who
#1 Loves my crazy family as much as I do
#2 Is strong when I can't be
#3 Always prays over me
#4 Who is just there.

God has blessed me indeed!
Happy Wives Club

Staying Hopeful, 
Aunt LaLa

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

Only 5 more days...

I will be going to GA for a VERY short trip to see my sister and nephew! I can not wait! Pictures will be posted :)

I haven't seen them in 10 months! 10!! That seems like such a big number... because it is. Now that we have a second car I don't have to wait until J can be off!

I will be seeing my best bud too and who doesn't get excited when they get to see their best friend!

And... I'm getting hair make over by my beauitful cousin! She is awesome with hair let me tell you! I can't wait to see what her creativity comes up with :)

I heard the news last week that Google Reader will be GONE in June. I was pretty miffed about this. Most of my readers follow me on Google Friend Connect. I'm not really clear after researching if that will remain... anyhow if it does not you can follow  me on Bloglovin ... Blogloving is also letting you transfer all your google reader feed to your account on there. THANK YOU BLOGLOVIN!

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Time for Tuesday Prayers...

Pray for safe travels next week
Pray for our church (HCF) 
Pray for the Pastors and leaders 
Pray for our children and teens
Pray for niece and nephews
Please continue to pray for my sister for a healthy pregnancy and healthy momma
Pray for 2 of my friends who have both lost loved ones this week

If there is anything I can pray for, for you please let me know!

Staying Hopeful,
Aunt LaLa

Monday, March 18, 2013

Servants Heart

I love my husband...

His heart is one the biggest, loving, compassionate, and forgiving hearts I know.

I am not afraid to admit that something I work on is being high strung (if you ever meet my dad you will know I come by it honestly...giggle.

 I do work hard on not being so demanding of MY way. I really do.Since January my education has been a little more taxing... grief has shown its ugly head... and changing to a more demanding job has really made my stress of perfection rise fairly quickly.

Usually there is lots of apologizing on my part. And on Josh's. But this is about my weak areas  not his.

So because of my stress I usually feel the same things:
1. distance from Josh
2. very sensitive
3. then I cry

Here is the reason of this post...

Lastnight I was  feeling all 3 of these things and when I get stressed all I can see is EVERYTHING that needs to get done.
-Group project
-4 blog post for class
-7 pg paper
-living room

So the list goes...

So what does Josh do as I tell him he hurt my feelings... tells me he is sorry and hugs me.

And says "talk to me babe" ... which for me to put my feelings into words is hard for me sometimes. I eternalize everything and work it out that way.

Tells me just quit school (in jest of course which made me laugh)

And then tell me get comforable on my "school chair" and just concentrate on doing my school stuff. Next thing I know he made me something to eat and brought me a big drink.

THEN he cleaned the kitchen... wow what an amazing man I'm married to.

When I was worn down and frustrated he looked for a way to serve me.. .

Think of the impact we would make if we did that in our relationships? What would that look like if we loved that much in every aspect of our life...

I'm a very blessed wife... I love you Josh :)

 Happy Wives Club

Friday, March 15, 2013

His eye is on the sparrow!

God is faithful in the small and big things. 
His love is everlasting. 
His peace surpasses all understanding. 
His mercy and grace are unending... Oh how I love Jesus!

This is on my heart this morning. God has been so faithful to me. Sometimes I forget how much he loves me. I was reminded again Tuesday night at my monthly ladies group meeting (SafeHearts). A sister was sharing her heart. Which sounded alot like mine...

Shame - Beacause I've made a mistake
Guilt - for failing
Heartbreak- because I can't get it right
Heartache - because I'm grieving so hard
(This is my heart not hers)

Having feelings and emotions are fine. Its OK that I am grieving. God built our minds, bodies, and gave us these emotions. He created me this way. 

However there is a slight problem... its when these struggles become your focus and not God. When all you can do is concentrate on the heartache or struggle. I believe we go through seasons of when we struggles are harder then others. I think among the many lessons God is trying to teach us on a personal level, I think there is one main lesson to be learned. 

To put him first. To trust him with EVERYTHING! (thats tough)

If you are a natural fixer, this can be difficult (I know because I am one)

I over analyze everything and try to create a solution and when I can't find one/its out of my control my anxiety flairs up. I get frustrated.

I want to fix my body so that I can have a baby
I want to fix my family so that they can experience God the way I do
I want to fix situation to the I way I want it to be, for the greater good in MY eyes

Notice a pattern?? A little selfish? Lots of "I" in there... 

My trust is not where it needs to be usually. And I'm working on that. It feels good to be able to write all this out. I do this in hopes it might encourage someone else as it has me to realize how much God loves me..

Isaiah 30:18
So the LORD must wait for you to come to him so he can show you his love and compassion. For the LORD is a faithful God. Blessed are those who wait for his help.

Psalms 130:5
I rely on the LORD, I rely on him with my whole being; I wait for his assuring word. 

Psalms 27:14
Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD!            


My pastor preached a sermon a couple weeks ago that has just stayed my heart and I have been repeating it over and over. I've heard this scripture so many times but it just hit me so hard... 

Matthew 6:25-34

25 “For this reason I say to you, [n]do not be worried about your [o]life, as to what you will eat or what you will drink; nor for your body, as to what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the [p]air, that they do not sow, nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not worth much more than they? 27 And who of you by being worried can add a single [q]hour to his [r]life? 28 And why are you worried about clothing? Observe how the lilies of the field grow; they do not toil nor do they spin, 29 yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory clothed himself like one of these. 30 But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace, will He not much more clothe you? You of little faith! 31 Do not worry then, saying, ‘What will we eat?’ or ‘What will we drink?’ or ‘What will we wear for clothing?’ 32 For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things; for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things. 33 But [s]seek first [t]His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be [u]added to you.
34 “So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will [v]care for itself. [w]Each day has enough trouble of its own."

Those two verses hit me like a ton of bricks... He LOVES me!! 

I wish I could bottle the excitement, healing, joy I feel right not reading this again!! 

I'm going to write more about this later... as I do have other things to do :) and I know you don't want a book... 

Dear Friday, I love you!
Dear New car (Yep we found one), I'm really digging you!
Dear J, we will get used to the change. I love you!!
Dear God, again you never cease to amaze me! 


Staying Hopeful,
Aunt LaLa

Wednesday, March 13, 2013

BIG announcment!

Remember when I said that I had been contacted by a website to be a contributor blogger?

Well the website was launched today!!

 I have been following Fawn over at Happy Wives Club for some time now and love what she is doing! I actually wrote a post about her website HERE. Fawn contacted me a few weeks ago and asked if I would be interested in being a contributor to the website.... of course I said YES!!

You can find my first post on their website HERE! Go check it out please! And leave me a comment, share the page.

I'm so excited to be apart of this movement because ... I'm a Happy Wife! I love being married and feel blessed to be apart of this great group of wives :)

Go check out the new website and enter in a AWESOME giveaway! When I say awesome I really mean it! :) Just click the button below...
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Staying Hopeful, Aunt LaLa

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

You gotta a friend in me

I love that song from Toy Story!

This past weekend was so much fun! After work on Saturday Josh picked me up and we headed out to meet up with some friends!

I have been friends with S since '05! We worked together at my very first daycare job. I haven't seen her since her wedding in '10! We live in different cities and well you know how it goes...

It was the first time we all 4 were able to hangout! As couples... is it crazy that I get so excited when we can have couple dates? instead of our individual friends? I find it extremely frustrating when we can't find a couple we BOTH like. Her J and my J seem to hit it off GREAT! Yay for that!

Of course it was like Schere and I had just seen eachother last week!

Putt putt was involved which S won!! Whew was she excited! Then some fun at the arcade! There may be a video of S and I doing some dance dance revolution... :) And I believe S got addicted to one of my favs! Of course she won over 1,000 tickets!

Looking forward to hanging out again in the near future!

Also, exciting news!! The website I'm writing for is launching tomorrow!! I'm SOOO excited to share it with you.... TOMORROW! Heehee

The Ramsay Grace Blog

A few prayer request...

1) I do not feel good... my sinuses are trying to keep me down.. boo
2) We still are looking for an automobile.
3) I'm going to an interview with one of my students today, pray I'm affective for his sake
4) My sister was diagnosed with preeclampsia and she is in need of prayers. Baby Nathan is doing fine but mom, not so much!

Staying Hopeful, 
Aunt LaLa 

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Distraction to focused

It's so hard to concentrate on work or school while I'm fighting these spiritual battle.

I went to a grief and loss session and so much came out of me I didn't even realize was there.

A big hugs boulder in my life that I chained myself to that was literally sucking the life out of me. Its been a crazy time.

I am working through it. So bare with me, as I am feeling a tad overwhelmed with it all.

I've made yet another resolution to my attempt at processing my grief.

I'm only taking one day at a time.

Don't tell me to be strong, because right now its ok if I'm not. I've posted several times about being an expert at "Pushdownism". And if I continue with that state of mind I'm going to be even more unhealthy then I was before losing Hope.

I'm working on not comparing. Comparing how much better of a mom I would be then so and so.

My heart cries out "God! I've been faithful to you! Why must I suffer this way?"

Then I'm reminded of so many that have lost so much more then I. Like Job, he lost everything but his own life.

I don't have answers and I don't understand.

But I must continue on trusting God, or trying to.

So please pray for me during this time. I know that God has great things planned for Josh and I.. he promises me that in Jeremiah 29:11-14.

So aside from this solemn post here is a funny picture I found of Josh right after we were married :)