Friday, November 30, 2012

So Long Farewell...

(From the Sound of Music... one of my favs)

Today is my last day at a job that I have been at for a couple years. As this day was approaching I have wondered how I would feel.

I feel bittersweet...

I know that some may think I'm crazy... I'm just changing jobs. But I guess I should tell you why this is a BIG milestone in my life.

You see, when I came to this job I had suffered a breakdown of sorts. I was diagnosed with PTSD. I was living a life in a anxiety filled world. Let me tell you, if you don't have anxiety be so thankful. This disorder can be crippling.

I was not able to work, I had to resign from a very good job. For 6 months I worked on getting better. I needed to work again, or we would lose everything. Josh and I prayed. Then I received a message from our Pastor saying they needed someone in the office and would I be interested.

I wept. Because I knew that I could do this job. I would be around people I knew and that loved me. I would be close to home.

Well, here I am 2 years and some odd months later. I'm resigning from this job not because of anxiety but because God has blessed me with a even better job then I had before. And the biggest blessing...

I AM AT PEACE.

When you live with anxiety you value those times when you can live at peace. I praise God for these last couple years to grow and be stronger. God knew exactly where I needed to be...

Do I still deal with anxiety? YOU BET. Everyday... But as I've grown, prayed,  and went through some counseling I have learned to handle it. I still have bad days, especially when grief hits me.

But God has never left myside...

So here is to a new chapter!

A new job, celebrating 5 years of marriage tomorrow, visiting family and friends this weekend, and our first Christmas celebration!! :)

Have a blessed weekend!


Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Identity

What makes you?

If you had to say one thing that makes you, you what would that be?

I have been really thinking about this subject.

What makes up my life?
What defines me?
 If a certain item is taken away from life where would that leave me.

Family may define you. Faith may define you..... or your spouse, kids, job, friends...

What SHOULD define us?

I would like to think that every aspect of our life is makes us who we are... Some things more than others.

I think sometimes we are unhealthy in the way certain things define us. Such as a bad past.. it gave experience and altered you but doesn't have to DEFINE you..

Me and God are hashing this out.

And I would love to hear your thoughts on this...

What defines you?

What SHOULD define you?


Please comment below or let me know on Facebook :)


Monday, November 26, 2012

Flu be gone!

We are alive. Today I got out. I had to work both jobs today...so residing on my couch again wasn't going to work...

So alas...I made it and now am waiting on the hubs to get off... so sorry this post isn't going to have much to it


Let me show you a song I like... and that I read about in a book this week...

Friday, November 23, 2012

Friday's Letters

Joining up with Ashley Adventures of the Newlyweds... (Sorry don't have the button. Blogging from my phone)

Dear flu, You stink. I don't appreciate you visiting our home.
Dear laryngitis, did you have to join flu?
Dear blogger friends, I might be absent in my commenting and such.
Dear body, thanks for at least holding out to be such until the night of Thanksgiving.
Dear J, at least we are together sick... we did say we haven't had any quality time lol
Dear God, please touch our bodies

Until...Well, whenever
Love Aunt LaLa

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving

I'm thankful for...
My Jesus, my God, my savior
husband
niece and nephews
siblings
Love that surrounds me
Grandparents who I treasure
Parents who love me unconditionally
Church family who are like my blood family
My baby, Hope, who I will one day hold and kiss
New job
There are so many blessings in my life, so many things I'm thankful for I couldn't name them all
Happy Thanksgiving from us!!

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Flight of the Bumblebees

Ever hear that song Flight of the Bumblebees?

That's what I feel should be my theme song for the week. It's been crazy busy and emotional.

Yet, as I sit here in the hospital waiting for a family member I feel so blessed.

The family member is only having a routine procedure... nothing serious. I'm thankful.

The fact I have had events and people to fill my life this week makes me thankful.

I got to have lunch with the greatest grandparents by myself. I'm thankful.

I'm thankful I made it through yesterday and today is better.

I also got a special gift from my grandparents that they made for me.
"So that I can take Hope with me"

Until tomorrow...
Love, Aunt LaLa

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

An Ache

I haven't really talked much about Hope here lately. Its not that I don't think about her. In fact she has been on my mind quiet frequently. The 15th came and left and I didn't even remember it was the 15th. It has been 6 months since we lost our Hope. Even though it has gotten easier the grief hits me out of no where sometimes.

Like yesterday. I was shopping for Thanksgiving groceries and I thought while I was there I would look in the man's clothing to see if I seen anything that caught my eye for Josh for Christmas. As I was walking through that section I walked right into the baby section. I turned that buggy so fast and practically ran from there.

The air escaped my lungs.

I have so much to be thankful for. And I am. As much as I smile, pray, and enjoy my family there will be something missing. I should be around 6 months pregnant.

I was realistic about how I would feel during the Holidays. Thinking it was going to be painful... but the ache of a hole in my heart is just so big words can't describe it.

I see people pregnant and who have children that I don't think should... I read these students files yesterday thinking why did these parents get children??

Alas, I reel myself back in. I qoute scriptures to myself or pray and have a good cry. Grief makes you feel so alone. It makes any emotion much more then they are. But it is a process.

I'm looking forward to this fun season ahead. God has blessed us so greatly. He has done more for me then I'm worthy of. His grace and mercies are forever...

I'm holding on to that... but I'm human... and my human self wants to be feeling my babies kicks... not the emptiness of my womb.

Sorry for the heavy post... But as you know by reading this blog I can't pretend...

So until tomorrow... Hug your babies extra tight





Monday, November 19, 2012

Pilgrims, Indians, puppets, and Lots of food


Friday night was AMAZING! 

Our Children's Ministry team decided that this fall we were going to try and show the kids what the first Thanksgiving was like. All the teachers and helpers who were able to come dressed up! 

We told the story through puppets, showed them authentic toys, and even had a reactments of the prayer over the food. We had Teepees, fake fire, make your own butter... Just look at the fun! 

This is a total photo dump :) Thank you to the photographer.. My lovely grandmother! :)

O and her buddy playing the teepee! Aren't they adorable?
Yummy food!!
This was the table. It was set up on the floor. Research showed that it was unlikely that they had tables to sit at. 


The puppets
The puppeteers! "And their pilgrim friend completed them"
E and M giving bye hugs and kisses!
Me, O , and E... my Grandma made their outfits! Aren't they adorable? 

Pastor Chief Ken (smile)

My dear friend (and fellow pilgrim) Teresa and I

Table of toys that were played by the children during this time period and books for the kids to read

The pilgrim and her futurist hubby (He had to work and didn't get to dress up... but wait until next time)

This teepee was for the kids to draw and decorate!

It was such a fun night!

Saturday was O's birthday party for our side of the family and she HAD to go to Chuck E. Cheese... But I'll save THAT photo dump for tomorrow :)

Have a great Monday!


Friday, November 16, 2012

Friday's Letters

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Dear new job, I could hardly contain my excitement this morning. I was in a real to goodness BIG GIRL meeting today!

Dear J, I so miss. I think some quality time is needed.

Dear Grandma and Mom, THANK THANK YOU for working on my pilgrim costume!

Dear Bloggie friends, I was so excited to have some new followers this week!

Dear self, let me just tell you... you rock. God is opening doors for you. Walk through. Head held high. Rest in his peace.

Dear other job, I can't promise I'm not going to cry buckets when I leave. I love it here. I love working with my church family.

Dear J, Did I mention that I love you? I'm so excited for the doors that are opening for us!

Dear God, You simply amaze me. Your so wise. Thank you for keeping me close.

That's all folks!! :)

Come Monday I will be sharing the pics and details from our Thanksgiving Celebration at our church... With me in costume :)


Thursday, November 15, 2012

It's Thursday, Lets talk about Wednesday


So if you follow me on Instagram then your know yesterday was exciting!

I became official at my new J-O-B! Got my paperwork done, my drug test, and I got my "official" badge/ID.

Can we say excited!!??? YES WE CAN!! Looking forward toward this new door God has opened!

I noticed that I have 2 new followers! Welcome :) I'm so excited to see what place my little 'ole' blog has in God's plan.

Yesterday Josh was off and hung out with me while I was getting all this stuff done. Our schedules can get so busy. Life can really crowd us ... we have just felt disconnected. But we are continuing to pray and find ways to strengthen our marriage.

While we were chillin (I'm such a dork) I was messing up my words ALL day.. Here are just a couple that J busted out laughing at :)

~When trying to find our GPS... I asked where our GheePS was! Like Mcghee without the Mc... He found this hilarious!

~We were discussing other people's parenting skills... which always leads to what we want to do with our children. One of the things we talk about a lot is to protect and shield them , but not so much to where its crippling. To find that balance. As we are discussing seriously... I loudly said

"Come on people let your kid out of the BOWL!"

"Bowl?"

"Wait, I mean bubble!"

Insert hysterics here. I know it was silly but we had a great time! :)


I hope you all have a great Thursday!!

PS I'm totally in this COOL new blog hop! Come join!



Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Stop Yelling!

Funness.... is it a word? Of course it is!

Good news! I heard from HR yesterday!

Getting closer to actually starting the job! YAY!

Tomorrow I'm meeting  with HR for the paperwork. Apply for my badge.

So stinking excited!

I'm still at my current job right now and will be until I'm booted out! Smile. No,  I'm hoping that the schedules do not conflict. However if they do I have the full support to pursue this new job from my current on. They are just awesome like that! I'm going to miss it terribly when that time comes... moving on...

Have you and your significant other or someone you have lived with constantly want to talk to you from the other side of the house? It goes something like this...

J: LAUREN!!

L: What?

J: Lauren!!!?

L:What do ya need?!!

J: What??

L: What! Do! You! Need?!

J: Lauren!!

L: Good greif. (gets up irritably goes to the room where J is) What did you want?

J: I was yelling for you...can you hand me towel, find the blah blah, check the yadda....

You can fill in the blanks! This is something that happens regularly at our house... We are both guilty of it! You would think we would just get up and go to person. Oh boy, laziness always rearing its ugly head.

Thats all for today... See ya tomorrow!




Monday, November 12, 2012

Birthdays, Earthquakes, and painting

I have to have one of those random lives that people look at me like I'm joking when I tell them things.

Maybe I think too much of myself... oh well. I think my life has some quirks! (Smile)

Some thing I've never expeirenced happened Saturday morning! I experienced an earthquake! There was an earthquake in Kentucky and we felt the aftershocks from there passed us to Georgia! If you have ever never expeirenced this... well it is really just.. weird, for lack of a better word

It felt as if someone was standing at the corner of my house and pushing it back and forth. It last for what seemed forever but was probably right under a minute. I really didn't realize until afterward what happened... I thought a big gust of wind and a tree was falling! But everyone was fine, but I believe there was extensive damage in KY. So say a prayer for those folks. I did see a funny pic yesterday on Facebook and I have to share...

I busted out laughing at this one! 


So as you all read my sweet niece O turned 4 Saturday!! Since it was her mothers weekend my brother had her and E for just the afternoon. It was so fun though! We went to the dog park so she could play wither her Pixel and her Tank (my brothers dog and Pixel's brother). Oh they were so snobby... ignoring the other dogs to play together! It was hysterical! We went and had dinner and shopped for birthday presents! :) She picked out some walkie talkies and some sunglasses... Can't wait for her party next weekend!

Pixel was going to see her brother! 

He is never still! and my shutter on my phone is too slow! :)

E loves his memaw!

The birthday girl and I! I love her so!

Yesterday was a calm day... Church, flea market, lunch, then home for the afternoon. I actually did some painting yesterday on our porch which was so relaxing... Good boy J! :) 

(He bought me some canvas's for my birthday so that I can de-stress... smile)

Ended it with a funny conversation with my best bud... and cuddle time with the hubs!


So that was my weekend! How was yours? 

Pixel and Abby had some cuddle time to :)



Saturday, November 10, 2012

Happy 4th Birthday O!!!

My beautiful niece, 

You have brought so much joy to La La's life. I love your sweet smile and sweet spirit. Your love for prayer and worship melts my heart! I will forever love you and be here for you. I will pray for you until my dying day. I hope you have the best birthday ever!! 

Love, 
LaLa
(your favorite person of course)





















Friday, November 9, 2012

Friday's Letters

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Dear weekend, I'm so excited! You hold some fun things :)

Dear O, I CANNOT believe you are going to be 4 years old tomorrow! Where did time go?
My first time holding O, I was officially Aunt LaLa
Dear J, I love you always, not anyways :)

Dear finger, I'm wondering your hurting.. it may be an occupation hazard

Dear new job, When is that call coming through!? :) Can't wait to see what God has in store

Dear Self, hey you... things are changing. Trust in the Lord!

Dear Pixel and Abby, please behave while we have company this weekend? Thank you :)

Dear J, Hand me the dice ; )

Dear God, thank you for your provision. Thank you for your protection. Thank you for my family. Thank you for your mercy, forgiveness, and grace.

Have a great weekend!!

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Here we go again...

I bet you thought this was going to be about President Obama being re-elected... Well its not. :)

It is however about going going to another Dr... Remember that mishap with a Dr just a few weeks ago I posted about here...

Well today I'm venturing to another Dr. ... While I hate finding a new one it is a must. This particular facility is supposed to be really good. So please pray it goes well. My last experience was not a good one.

Moving on...

I'm hoping to hear about my new job with a starting date... Hopefully sooner then later!! :)

Another thing... I'm tired of all this doom and gloom. It actually makes me physically sick. Maybe I'm niave to want to just live my life without thinking of consequences of our government has in my life. Will worrying, complaining, conspiring change anything???

NO.

For goodness sake, our votes don't really count that much. LOL No, but seriously. I'm choosing to trust in my God!! Who is bigger then any government or leader.

So with that I leave you this...

Job 42:1 "I'm convinced: You can do anything and everything. Nothing and no one can upset your plans"


Happy Wednesday!!


P.S. Guess who is hanging out with me today?? 

Excuse the no make up but I thought this was so cute! 


Tuesday, November 6, 2012

To Vote or not to Vote?

So, there are some people on my life who are all about politics, voting, debates... ect. I am not one of these people.

There are also people in my life who take a more cynical point of view and believe our votes don't count. The government is crooked, they will put in there who they want. We are only a suggestion. I am not one of these people either.

Over much deliberation with in myself I decided I was going to vote. These are MY reasons why:

1. Our current presidents policies upset me and I don't agree with them. I feel the "other" guy is less of the two evils (not literal, just a figure of speech).

2. Even if our government is corrupt (Because face it we know it is unfortunately) there are men and women who have LOST their lives fighting for my freedom. And one of those freedoms is to vote. I feel not to vote is dishonoring them. So as I vote today, I will be remembering all the men and women who have or are fighting for our country.

3. Social pressure... when someone finds out your not voting or didn't WHOA!! If looks could kill... wow (This isn't a real reason for me but is valid none the less)

OK, thats my one and only (sort of) political post you will see until the next election!!  : )

Have a great day everyone!



Monday, November 5, 2012

pictures, announcements, and me

Hello! Hello!!
I hope everyone had a splendid weekend! 

I felt this weekend went by slower then usual which was ok with me!! 

Before I get to my announcement... I have to show you some pics from the weekend! 

Saturday we ended up at the park playing in the sand with the kids! And you might notice that we are using Pilot and Mcd's cups to play in the sand. We didn't have shovels or buckets so Aunt LaLa improvised! :)



So sweet! After got that sand he poured it on his head and tried to eat it :) 



She swinging in a big swing! She was very proud!


Some of my readers may or may not have known that I went to an interview at the end of September. It would have a been a great opportunity however I never heard from them. I thought the interview went well. I prayed and asked the Lord to shut the door if its not what he wanted. 

So, lastweek I received a phone call from the department I interviewed with. She said that she really had enjoyed interviewing me but that had went with someone else. However, a position just came open and she wanted to know I would be interested in looking at it. She thought it would be a good fit for me. 

Of course I said yes!! I went to the interview Friday. I cannot even tell you the peace I felt that day. I was relying and trusting on the Lord. 

What was supposed to be (I thought) an interview for a different position almost felt like a proposal to myself for the job. The gentleman I interviewed with was obviously passionate about what this new program entailed. 

The grant was just approved and they could ONLY hire 2 people. It is a fantastic program and I was so excited just to hear about it. It is working with students who are in high school but are not excelling at an academic level or that might be perceived to likely in dropping out. This programs is going to be designed to help these students stay in school and go toward a vocation. Teaching them some life skills. Transportation on the bus line we have here. Job shadowing. I would be occasionally in front of a class to do minor things. Performing assessments. And be apart of coming up with the curriculum to get this program off the ground. 

After going over the grant that had be written he asked if I would be interested... and what were my thoughts 

Of course I said YES I'M INTERESTED!! But I was very calm on the outside! Not to mention the pay is beyond what I could have imagined. 

The experience invaluable! The fact that I'm going to be apart of something bigger then myself is exciting and I can't wait! 

This is so God! He knew that this grant was coming before anyone did. He knew that I was meant to be in this position. No one knew that the grant was going to get approved when I went for the first interview! To God be the Glory!! 

See I told ya amazing!! 

I'm still going to stay at my current job (which I love by the way)! And work both for now. Hopefully there will not be too many conflicts... but I know God will lead me there too! :) 

I know God has great things in store! 




God loves me. I can't stop praising his name!!