So Long Farewell...

(From the Sound of Music... one of my favs)

Today is my last day at a job that I have been at for a couple years. As this day was approaching I have wondered how I would feel.

I feel bittersweet...

I know that some may think I'm crazy... I'm just changing jobs. But I guess I should tell you why this is a BIG milestone in my life.

You see, when I came to this job I had suffered a breakdown of sorts. I was diagnosed with PTSD. I was living a life in a anxiety filled world. Let me tell you, if you don't have anxiety be so thankful. This disorder can be crippling.

I was not able to work, I had to resign from a very good job. For 6 months I worked on getting better. I needed to work again, or we would lose everything. Josh and I prayed. Then I received a message from our Pastor saying they needed someone in the office and would I be interested.

I wept. Because I knew that I could do this job. I would be around people I knew and that loved me. I would be close to home.

Well, here I am 2 years and some odd months later. I'm resigning from this job not because of anxiety but because God has blessed me with a even better job then I had before. And the biggest blessing...

I AM AT PEACE.

When you live with anxiety you value those times when you can live at peace. I praise God for these last couple years to grow and be stronger. God knew exactly where I needed to be...

Do I still deal with anxiety? YOU BET. Everyday... But as I've grown, prayed,  and went through some counseling I have learned to handle it. I still have bad days, especially when grief hits me.

But God has never left myside...

So here is to a new chapter!

A new job, celebrating 5 years of marriage tomorrow, visiting family and friends this weekend, and our first Christmas celebration!! :)

Have a blessed weekend!