Tuesday, February 26, 2013

Praying...

I'm excited about some very cool news I got this week.

I was contacted by a organization that I stand behind to be a contributor blogger on their website! I won't say who right now but when it is released I will definitely let you know! I'm so excited about this opportunity!

We have been sharing one car for ever! And we are now in desperate need to fix this! So please pray with us as we are looking at used cars that we can not spend very much money on. And we don't have that much extra to put into it.

Also, there are some other things that we need direction on. We are trusting God to lead as he always does.

Did you know that I'm writing a blog for my counseling theories class I'm in right now? Well I am  :)

Here is the link LaLa's Thoughts on Theories

We must write a blog post for 10 different theories and therapies. This professor seems to be grading tough too, but I do enjoy his class! His humor keeps me laughing... probably because he is on the sarcastic side and as you know I am too :)

Thanks for the prayers and hope you have a great Tuesday!


Friday, February 22, 2013

I betcha didn't know...

So found this over at Perfectly Imperfect and thought I would  play along...

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**Things you will find in my purse
~all my make-up - I have 2 mascara, several lip gloss, 2 large eyeshadow compact, powder, concealer, blush and several make-up brushes :)
~ Wallet (of course)
~Ipod, that usually has a dead battery LOL
~random receipts ( I have hard time throwing things away)
~Old tissue (gross right?)

**Things you will in my bedroom
~All of my clothes... Josh has to use a separate closet (the closets are small ok?) 
~all of our chargers (Josh must have them within arms length)
~my Hope pillow
~empty glasses because I always have water in the middle of the night
~stacks of clutter

**Things I've always wanted to do
~Take a pottery class
~Take a painting class
~Visit the church where Hope's name is recorded
~Go on a cruise
~Get a massage

**Things I'm currently loving (this may be a little sad LOL)
~When I get to sleep
~any lotion (this cold weather is taking a tole on my hands)
~my black boots
~my text book for my counseling theories class
~eating at home when I can

**Quirks I have (this should be good!)
~I hate the feeling when only one of my hands is wet and the other is not.
~I love hard copies of books, my notes, my calendar... I would rather have hard copy then on a device
~I must have a drink at all times. Seriously. Josh even makes jokes about how I'm addicted to drinking LOL
~Please dear God do not let the sheet come off the bed and my feet touch it!! AAAHHH
~I pester Josh ALOT... heehee and I think its hilarious!

Let me know if you decide to play along :)

OK time for Friday Letters!
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Dear J, thank you for being there when I need to share my heart
Dear A and S, I cannot wait for some girl time tonight
Dear O,J,E, and N, You are Lala's heart!
Dear HCF, I'm so blessed to be apart of our family
Dear God, thank you for your mercy and grace as I work out my "stuff" 

Have a great weekend!!




Thursday, February 21, 2013

Shy to Not So Much

From a young age behind my smile was a very anxious, shy, not a very confident person. I was so insecure about myself that I never wanted to talk in front of others except for children.

There were some struggles for me as a teenager. I was one of those kids who from a young age followed Christ. My moral compass was extremely high for a young person. Unfortunately the young people who were around me did not share my views, and the friends of mine that did lived in another state.

Being an outcast or unaccepted by your peers can leave a damaging affect. Middle school I was made fun of often. Youth group at church was no better as I entered my later teen years. I was OK for a shoulder to cry on or to gain advice. When one of my friends decided to bump up their morals for a time then I was fine to "hang" with.  This peer rejection stayed with me, and then I had my heart broken by someone for some of the same reasons. I was not willing to compromise  my beliefs or morals.

At 19 I decided that I was going to do what I had to do. I got my GED, took my ACT, applied for college. For someone who is insecure and has anxiety this was a big deal. It was time for me to start living life for me and be who God wanted.

That is when I began to change. I became more confident (a little). My self-esteem was still pretty low. But I tried focusing on making my life my own with or without being single or in a relationship.

Fast forward a couple years... I had found some great friends through school and work. I was really just loving my life. Then I met Josh.

As you know we have had a wondrous love affair (You can read it HERE). When he met me my heart was still pretty bruised by had came back together.

This week in training I noticed something about myself that I've been noticing ALOT sense changing jobs especially.

I was confident. I spoke with being anxious. I participated with out caring what people thought. I no longer follow, but I'm leading. I'm not concerned with pleasing anyone except God. Not family. Not friends. Not co-workers. Not even Josh. 

My concern is to be the woman that God has planned me to be. But I'm not living for others. I'm living for him.

There is a point to all of this... I promise.

First, don't wait on people to accept you. Do not try and please them. God has a specific plan just for you!! His plan not theirs! Start living today! If you need a boost feel free to message me on facebook or my email. Please don't wait one more second.


Josh has influenced my confidence and my self-esteem in so many ways.

1. He respects me - values, morals, beliefs, and all. Not once did ridicule me or look down on me because of them.

2. He goes over and beyond to make sure I felt beautiful from day one. He communicates his attraction to my personality and to me physically.

3. He stands behind my goals and dreams.

4. He has NEVER tried to change me. He fell in love with me. :)

Again, I encourage you. If your hurting because of what people thought or think of you. Don't let it hinder you... move forward. This was not an easy process... And I didn't get here over night. But I would love to share with you how.

Why I Love My Husband 

Until Next time, 

 

Monday, February 18, 2013

A sweet and thoughtful day


Last years Valentines day was not that great. Josh was sick and I was playing nurse. He forgot it was Valentines day.  The only reason I refer to that is because last year was not that great of a year... in our marriage, life, finances. There was just so much.

But let me brag here for a second. My husband has been so amazing. Do you know why?

Because he has taken the initiative to work on himself. Trying to hold to his promises, completely cut down on his gadgets... and the one that meant so much was on Valentines day. You see I'm not about money being spent, jewelry, or anything huge. But thoughtfulness? That's what fills my "love cup" to the brim.. and overflows it.

First he arranged to be off on Valentines. Which was great! We slept in... then exchanged cards. His card was a handmade one! Which I loved! He wrote a beautiful note to me. (Which by the way he has been writing me notes often lately, and I Love it!! Men, write your wife a note. Surprise her with it. Tell her how much  you love her... it goes along way)

We then ate breakfast and headed out for the day. I had no idea where we were going. Honestly, I hadn't had the time or energy to try and guess (Like I usually do). Every time I did ask he would just tell me

"I got it"

So, we as were headed to the destination we reminisced which is always fun. We arrive at the Art Museum! I LOVE going to museums! I had never been to this one downtown where we live. It was beautiful! And so much fun... so many things to look at! And ponder...


We are dorks I know! LOL 
Anyway both of these pieces are completely made out of magazines and new papers! Is that not cool... I wish we could have take more pictures but we had to be stealth :)

After finishing at the museum we walked to the Sunsphere which I had never been to... and we decided  won't be again. First off they were doing construction work, the elevator was shaking, and it stunk... But the view was pretty. And some nice lady took our picture


We walked and talked forever holding hands. It was a beautiful day!!

(other then having to go to class lol)

I found out later on that he had 3 separate plans he got together just in case one or the other didn't work out! Love his thoughtfulness!

I'm truly a blessed woman. I thank God for Josh, I really do! 


Wednesday, February 13, 2013

True Love - 1st kiss, 1st I love You

Tomorrow is Valentines Day! YAY!! I thought I would write about Josh and I's love story. What better time to get sappy right?? Get ready for some major sappiness

I've wrote from when we found each other up to our first date so if you need to catch up you can go HERE and all the links are there!

After our long 1st date we were together every weekend. All week long I counted down the hours until I would make that drive to my grandparents house so that I could see Josh the next morning.

Our second date J walked me to the door (with some nudging from me... He would get so nervous!) and I gave him a hug.

We were on our 4th date when Josh asked me to be his girlfriend.
"So, I noticed on your Myspace profile it still says single. Do you think we can change that?"
Yes, that is how a man in his mid-twenties asked me to be his girlfriend. Even though I still kid him about it, it was pretty cute! :)

Now mind you we had only hugged.

No holding hands, no kisses.

The next weekend we couldn't wait to see each other! He met me on that next Friday after I drove in to my grandparents. When we got there we went to go watch a movie in one the guest bedroom. We had talked all week about how nervous we both were, but that very quickly we were very fond of each other. I had never kissed anyone or had held hands. So this was all very new to me. I had wanted to wait to have all my first with the man I would marry.

We turned on the movie and sat on the daybed. Josh put his arm around me. He kept squeezing me and we kept just staring at each other. I finally scooted closer and laying my head on his shoulder. I rested my hand on his chest. All of the sudden he just grabbed my hand. My heart jumped in my throat. He took a big sigh. We kept talking about all kinds of stuff. Past hurts, dreams, hopes... totally ignoring the movie.

As we were talking and sharing I looked at him and couldn't take my eyes away from his.

He leaned down and kissed me. A gentle sweet kiss.

I knew right then I was in-love with him. 

He looked at me and kissed me again and said the most beauitful thing.

"I Love You"

So yes in one night we held hands, kissed, and told each other "I Love You"

We sat there for a long time just holding one another (there may have or may not have been some more kissing heehee).

I don't think any one believes us still about what happened next but its the truth. After trying to watch 3 movies and failing we fell asleep holding each other.

I was jolted awake by his cell phone vibrating... looking at the clock it said 5 AM!!

I went to panic mode! "Josh, Josh! You have got to leave! My grandfather is going to kill you!" HAHA!

We got up, I walked him to the door..

He told me he loved me once more and gave a me a kiss then left.

It was truly one of the most sweetest nights of my life.





Monday, February 4, 2013

Blurry Vision

Can I post a tad bit of a rant here?

Will you still love me anyway?

Aw, you are all so kind...

I read a post today from someone who had tried for years to get pregnant. Suffered miscarriages. It was a painful experience that ended in a positive! She conceived and now has a beautiful baby!

Here is the really frustrating part... She complains about this child all the time. How she gets annoyed with things she does. Or how she is grateful because she doesn't have hear her noises when she sleeps because she is now in her own room.

This really upsets me. I know having a child can be trying. But I would think after years of wanting a child there would a tad bit more joy coming from the situation. I can only imagine how I would be if I get to be a mom. But I know for certain it would be the most joyous thing of my life. I would LOVE to be able to conceive and have a beautiful baby. Or hold Hope.

What about being employed? I know that all jobs are not the greatest. And I've had some job that were not the funnest. BUT, I had a job. You have to have a job to make money, money to support your family, family to have a happy life ... right? Do you realize how many homeless families we have in America? How many we have unemployed? How many children go to bed hungry??

We have all had those sad lonely nights where we just wanted to be loved? HA! Am I right?

Yes.

So you have a spouse and you chose to marry them. But they are just not good enough anymore. So you complain about them. Not putting any effort into making your marriage better. NOPE, you complain.

This my friends is BLURRY VISION... You have been BLESSED by God, yet you can't see past your selfishness to see that.

Living your life for your own personal gain, being selfish, begin ungrateful is a sad existance.

BE THANKFUL!

I'm not saying I don't have down days because I do. But you cancel the invites to your self-pity party and move on.

Get in your word see how the disciples lived. See how Jesus lived.

WHEW! That feels better :) Better things tomorrow! Back to studying for this final :)


Friday, February 1, 2013

Friday's Letters


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Dear Josh,
I  Hope you know how much I love you. Thank you or for supporting me in everything I do. When it seems I'm always writing a paper, researching some statistics, writing up my contact log, preparing for a meeting, or any of the things I do in a week. I promise You and I will have some quality time this weekend. Sorry for my absence this week. Think this time next year I will be almost done with school :)

Dear job,
I really love you. And I'm excited to continue to watch this program grow.

Dear bosses,
It was a great compliment today when you wanted my co workers portfolios, organization, etc to look like mine when you present it to state Tuesday :D

That's all that folks! I'm exhausted!

Have a great weekend!