Monday, December 31, 2012

2013 a New Year


2013 is here. Well less than 24 hours away. This year has stretched me, changed me, and challenged everything about my life.

To be honest I'm glad this year is coming to a close.
I'm thankful that I've made it through this year.

I love that my blog has grown. I have loved interacting with the blog world. I've met new friends. And have had some really great support and love that has been sent my way.

Through this year my relationship with God has changed. Its become more intimate. When we lost Hope I didn't know if I could take another breath. If I would make it. But every day, moment by moment God gave me the strength to go on. My prayer has changed, my perspective has changed....

Grief is a monster. Its something that can take over your life. It tried its best to take me down. But God never left me.

This year I have grown closer to my friends. Women I trust and know love me and have my back. They will fight for me and not with me.  I've been able to be apart of some special moments with them. Love my girls!

My family has been through some tough stuff this year and we have had some blessings as well! God had kept us safe, brought us through trials, healed us from sickness.

Josh and I have been on some roller coaster. We have faced some difficult things. But we have kept God in the center of our marriage. We have prayed and clung to God and each other. Our marriage is even stronger then it was. I do believe I fell in love with my husband even more through this year.

God has done amazing things in our church. Our Jr. High class has grown and so has our entire team in the Childrens ministry. Its amazing and I'm so thankful! I know God has big things planned for HCF!

I do not know what 2013 holds but I'm placing my faith and trust in God. He has  a plan.

I pray everyone has a great and safe New Years!!

Monday, December 24, 2012

Merry Christmas

(Read as the night before Christmas)
" T’was the Night Before Christmas
Heaven’s Version

'Twas the night before Christmas, when all through Heaven‘s house,
All the angels were stirring, the Saviors birth to announce!
The Heavenly Host’s were getting ready to sing,
In the hope that their anthem would let True Freedom ring.

The shepherds were keeping their sheep late that night,
While the Provision from Heaven hung just out of sight.
Mary was weary from traveling all day,
While Joseph was searching for a place they could stay.

A decree from Caesar made travel a must,
Mary’s feet were now cold, tired, and covered with dust.
Yet, in her heart she quietly remembered, 
That the Angel of the Lord said, She was highly favored!

All Joseph could find was a room in a barn,
But at least for the night Mary’s feet would be warm.
The time of her delivery would be here soon,
As the light of the day, gave way to the moon.

The Son of the Highest he shall be called,
A Horn of Salvation given for all.
He will sit on the throne of his father David,
And one day all men will sing his praises.

The Mighty God and Everlasting Father,
Whose Government alone will rest on his shoulder.
A Wonderful Counselor, and the Prince of Peace,
Whose Government over time will only increase.

The Spirit of the Lord will rest upon him;
He is anointed to heal all who are broken.
He will set at liberty them that are bruised,
Mistreated and jailed, and by power, abused.

The promised Messiah from a time long ago,
Was now ready to be given to the world down below.
The promise of His Kingdom reigning on Earth,
To govern our hearts, and to show men their worth.

The shepherds were resting; the sheep were silent that night,
When the Angel appeared, and caused them great fright.
Fear not, said the Angel, I bring tidings of great joy,
Which will be for all people, so all may rejoice!

Your Savior has been born in the City of David,
Which is Christ the Lord, who has come to save us.
He will make the dark places lighted within, 
Take away all guilt and do away with all sin.

Peace on Earth! The Angel said, All is well with mankind!
For the Father has sent his Gift right on time.
The Gift of forgiveness for all to enjoy,
His salvation and blessings for you to employ.
You’ll find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes,
His name will be Jesus, and he is God’s love exposed.

Then the Angel was joined by the Heavenly Hosts,
Giving glory to God in the Highest, as together they rose.
The shepherds heard them exclaim as they rose out of sight,
God’s forgiveness to all, and to all, a very good night!"

Found this online at faithwriters.com

I loved it! I pray you all have a Very Merry Christmas!!

Love, Aunt LaLa

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Christmas Tree oh Christmas tree

Here is our tree. I'm loving it this year! We have so much more room!! :)
And one of Josh and Is Christmas pics my lovely grandmother took. Happy Saturday!

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Packed full but not forgetting

It's so easy to be busy during this holiday season. Christmas parties, celebration, shopping, and on and on.

But we must not forget what this season is about. It's about a night long ago that a yong girl gave birth to our savior and Lord. Our father in heaven GAVE his only son for us.

Only to be crucified some thirties something years later.

Yet, we lose sight of magic of Christmas. I've been so disappointed to hardley find any Christmas music on. Not that many joyous people either. Instead I'm finding more scrooges or people  who are indifferent. This makes  me sad.

Have we become so wrapped up on our own selves and problems that we are losing our joy and happiness as a society.

In light of the tragedy last Friday we should be holding on to every pure, happy, joyous thing we can. Thats my opinion any way.

So you can't buy everything you want. So every thing isn't going your way. So you might have had a tough year.... But you have life. I know that God had his hand on you every step of the way. Just as he has walked with me.

My HOPE is in him. My JOY is in him. My PEACE is in him.

Until tomorrow....

Love, Aunt LaLa

Monday, December 17, 2012

Big Blue Eyes...

As I looked into my niece and nephews big blue eyes Friday tears poured.

My heart is broken...

Honestly I've read and seen so many argument, opinions, views on the tragedy that has befallen these poor families.

We are never as sane individuals going to reason away or grasp why this happened.

You can say we need more guns
We need no guns
We need better treament for mentally ill

But at this moment I don't want to even THINK about contributing to any argument because no matter what side, issue, or argument we are standing by

It will not bring the 26 souls that are no longer with us back. 20 of those who died as innocent children. Who had to look death in the face. Or those 6 brave individuals who died by trying to protect the babies.

So as my heart breaks I'm praying hard for peace, solace, strength... healing. And hope.


Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Christmas delight!

Can you believe that were are only a little over 10 days away from Christmas?

Did I just make you panic? :)

Anyhow, I apologize for my absence. This time of year is full of craziness!

Josh and I still haven't had a chance to celebrate our anniversary... but we were able to spend some extra time together these last four days and it has been so nice.

Josh and I work hard on our marriage. Sometimes its easier then others.

After all we have been through this year it has taken a toll on us as a couple. I have struggled with whether to write about this, but, I've always promised honesty. I believe we go through things to grow us and to prepare us to minister to others. It's the circle of God miraculous plans.

My pastor last night at our ladies Christmas celebration mentioned a story she heard a minister tell. He was suffering with great pain, and instead of being in desperation about the pain he stopped and prayed. Thinking this pain was for a purpose. Shortly after this a man came to him experiencing the same exact pain. This minister could relate to him now because he had been through the same thing.

When she said this I realized that I could not hold this in. The season in our marriage is no FUN. There I said it. We have argued, felt disconnected, discouraged, out of sorts.

But, we are talking, working, praying, reading the word... Clinging to God and making him first.

Without him in the center we will not have the marriage God wants us to have.

We are still in-love. and crazy about one another. That hasn't changed.

We have changed though..

Lets face it, life is tough. And this year has been exceptionally tough.

I've learned a very big lesson. Grief is a POWERFUL emotions. It affects every aspect of your life.

It has affected our marriage in a big way. And that's OK. There are seasons to everything including your relationships. Every relationship.

We recognize the enemy is out to still and destroy. We are not letting him have us.

God has been so good to both of us. With J's promotion and my new job! I praise him for his love, grace, and mercy!

Not sure why I felt the need to share this... But its OK that we have bad days. Or we may feel "out of sorts" ... Cling to God and his word.

As we continue on the pursuit of closeness with God we will in turn become closer...

Have a happy Wednesday!

Friday, December 7, 2012

Fridays Letters

Linking up with Ashley for Friday letters :)
Dear week, you have been ddrraaggiinngg
Dear self, I worry about you...what a weird week.
Dear job, your awesome but exhausting
Dear dad and mom, was great riding with you yesterday
Dear J, I love you
Dear o and e, you both were so cute last night!
Dear HCF, love all of our Christmas activities!
Dear S, I'm trying to be happy for you.
Dear God, please help me not to let the bitterness and jealousy take over. I'm a work in progress, be with me.
Dear J, just wanted to say I love you again <3
Dear Jlaw Incorporated, I'm looking forward to your dinner ;)

have a great weekend!

Love, Aunt LaLa

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Random Wednesday

Here is a bunch of random pictures :)

So it took me 2 nights to catch up on my sleep from the weekend. Is that normal? Lol

Even though I've only read, read, and read student files I'm really enjoying my new job.

Looking forward to finishing decorating our tree

Looking forward to play practice... This year is going to be halarious!

I love holidays!!

Happy Wednesday!

Monday, December 3, 2012

Out of Sorts

What a wonderful weekend... but I'm exhausted. Working both jobs, getting up extra early, J working at different locations, twisting my ankle, then a weekend packed full of parties, and no sleep.

So today now I'm feeling a little tired and out of sorts. It was my first day at my new job by myself. It was so much fun even though all I did was meet people and read student files.

So Saturday was our five year anniversary. And we didn't get to celebrate together. We tried Friday night but that didn't work. We were both exhausted and so tired that neither felt very romantic or celebratory. So after 2 hours of just driving around and talking we ended up just going to the groceries store and buying snacks... went home and watched our wedding video. The next day was our actual anniversary which I left early that morning to head to a family reunion. Josh had to work. By the time he made it to the destination in another state to pick me up it was late in the afternoon. After that we left to my best buds birthday party

(((HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELANIE!!!!!)))

Which was a great time... and not going to bed until 3:30 and then up at 10:30... only to leave from there and drive back home to make it to a Christmas party for the leadership at our church.

So yes, maybe I'm just feeling out of sorts because

I'm tired
Haven't spent any quality time with J
I've changed jobs

There is just so much....Things I don't feel the need to write here.

So if you would prayers for me to get out off this funk would be appreciated...

Until tomorrow


Saturday, December 1, 2012

5 year anniversary

Happy 5 year anniversary to one of the sweetest, gentle, humble, big hearted, godly, funny, loving, sexy man I have ever known...

And I get to spend the rest of my life with him...

I love you Joshua Aaron

Love, your funyungrl