Aunt LaLa

So at 5:45 J and I pulled ourselves out of bed and waiting anxiously for my interview to be shown! Then there it was, I have to be honest I was nervous, excited, and even though I'm celebrating Hope my heart was hurting. I'm so thankful for the support I recieve from my husband, family, and friends. I pray that the 15th at the balloon release there will be peace and a step toward healing for other women. I feel many mixed emotions right now! One of them is excited, I know God opened this door and I cannot wait to see what he is going to do in Josh and I's lives. Here is to my sweet baby, I love you Hope with all my heart. In the video I show my heart. This heart is from A Heart to Hold . They are an amazing organization. Their mission is: To offer comfort to families who have experienced pregnancy and infant loss by creating and sharing the gift of a weighted handmade heart. I love my heart and it stays close to me. I'm so grateful to have recieve...

Finished my interview this morning! It will be aired tomorrow morning in the 6am hour on WVLT Local 8 news. I will make sure to post the link on here and on my Facebook page as well. What a journey that God has taken us on. When I wrote the First post about Hope , it was such difficult day. I've went back and read that post and remember the paralyzing grief I felt. There are no right words to express my gratefulness that I can now function, and the pain does not take my breath away everyday. I can be honest in saying that almost a year and 1/2 later my heart is still hurting. I am not sure you ever stop hurting but as cliche as it sounds time does heal. It is OK that I have good and bad days... grief is like that. It can hit you all at once and not even see it coming. Then there are days like today where I feel empowered because of what I have been through. I want help others process all of this, and be able to learn myself through others. I am so incrediably grat...