Monday, December 31, 2012

2013 a New Year


2013 is here. Well less than 24 hours away. This year has stretched me, changed me, and challenged everything about my life.

To be honest I'm glad this year is coming to a close.
I'm thankful that I've made it through this year.

I love that my blog has grown. I have loved interacting with the blog world. I've met new friends. And have had some really great support and love that has been sent my way.

Through this year my relationship with God has changed. Its become more intimate. When we lost Hope I didn't know if I could take another breath. If I would make it. But every day, moment by moment God gave me the strength to go on. My prayer has changed, my perspective has changed....

Grief is a monster. Its something that can take over your life. It tried its best to take me down. But God never left me.

This year I have grown closer to my friends. Women I trust and know love me and have my back. They will fight for me and not with me.  I've been able to be apart of some special moments with them. Love my girls!

My family has been through some tough stuff this year and we have had some blessings as well! God had kept us safe, brought us through trials, healed us from sickness.

Josh and I have been on some roller coaster. We have faced some difficult things. But we have kept God in the center of our marriage. We have prayed and clung to God and each other. Our marriage is even stronger then it was. I do believe I fell in love with my husband even more through this year.

God has done amazing things in our church. Our Jr. High class has grown and so has our entire team in the Childrens ministry. Its amazing and I'm so thankful! I know God has big things planned for HCF!

I do not know what 2013 holds but I'm placing my faith and trust in God. He has  a plan.

I pray everyone has a great and safe New Years!!

Monday, December 24, 2012

Merry Christmas

(Read as the night before Christmas)
" T’was the Night Before Christmas
Heaven’s Version

'Twas the night before Christmas, when all through Heaven‘s house,
All the angels were stirring, the Saviors birth to announce!
The Heavenly Host’s were getting ready to sing,
In the hope that their anthem would let True Freedom ring.

The shepherds were keeping their sheep late that night,
While the Provision from Heaven hung just out of sight.
Mary was weary from traveling all day,
While Joseph was searching for a place they could stay.

A decree from Caesar made travel a must,
Mary’s feet were now cold, tired, and covered with dust.
Yet, in her heart she quietly remembered, 
That the Angel of the Lord said, She was highly favored!

All Joseph could find was a room in a barn,
But at least for the night Mary’s feet would be warm.
The time of her delivery would be here soon,
As the light of the day, gave way to the moon.

The Son of the Highest he shall be called,
A Horn of Salvation given for all.
He will sit on the throne of his father David,
And one day all men will sing his praises.

The Mighty God and Everlasting Father,
Whose Government alone will rest on his shoulder.
A Wonderful Counselor, and the Prince of Peace,
Whose Government over time will only increase.

The Spirit of the Lord will rest upon him;
He is anointed to heal all who are broken.
He will set at liberty them that are bruised,
Mistreated and jailed, and by power, abused.

The promised Messiah from a time long ago,
Was now ready to be given to the world down below.
The promise of His Kingdom reigning on Earth,
To govern our hearts, and to show men their worth.

The shepherds were resting; the sheep were silent that night,
When the Angel appeared, and caused them great fright.
Fear not, said the Angel, I bring tidings of great joy,
Which will be for all people, so all may rejoice!

Your Savior has been born in the City of David,
Which is Christ the Lord, who has come to save us.
He will make the dark places lighted within, 
Take away all guilt and do away with all sin.

Peace on Earth! The Angel said, All is well with mankind!
For the Father has sent his Gift right on time.
The Gift of forgiveness for all to enjoy,
His salvation and blessings for you to employ.
You’ll find the babe wrapped in swaddling clothes,
His name will be Jesus, and he is God’s love exposed.

Then the Angel was joined by the Heavenly Hosts,
Giving glory to God in the Highest, as together they rose.
The shepherds heard them exclaim as they rose out of sight,
God’s forgiveness to all, and to all, a very good night!"

Found this online at faithwriters.com

I loved it! I pray you all have a Very Merry Christmas!!

Love, Aunt LaLa

Saturday, December 22, 2012

Christmas Tree oh Christmas tree

Here is our tree. I'm loving it this year! We have so much more room!! :)
And one of Josh and Is Christmas pics my lovely grandmother took. Happy Saturday!

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Packed full but not forgetting

It's so easy to be busy during this holiday season. Christmas parties, celebration, shopping, and on and on.

But we must not forget what this season is about. It's about a night long ago that a yong girl gave birth to our savior and Lord. Our father in heaven GAVE his only son for us.

Only to be crucified some thirties something years later.

Yet, we lose sight of magic of Christmas. I've been so disappointed to hardley find any Christmas music on. Not that many joyous people either. Instead I'm finding more scrooges or people  who are indifferent. This makes  me sad.

Have we become so wrapped up on our own selves and problems that we are losing our joy and happiness as a society.

In light of the tragedy last Friday we should be holding on to every pure, happy, joyous thing we can. Thats my opinion any way.

So you can't buy everything you want. So every thing isn't going your way. So you might have had a tough year.... But you have life. I know that God had his hand on you every step of the way. Just as he has walked with me.

My HOPE is in him. My JOY is in him. My PEACE is in him.

Until tomorrow....

Love, Aunt LaLa

Monday, December 17, 2012

Big Blue Eyes...

As I looked into my niece and nephews big blue eyes Friday tears poured.

My heart is broken...

Honestly I've read and seen so many argument, opinions, views on the tragedy that has befallen these poor families.

We are never as sane individuals going to reason away or grasp why this happened.

You can say we need more guns
We need no guns
We need better treament for mentally ill

But at this moment I don't want to even THINK about contributing to any argument because no matter what side, issue, or argument we are standing by

It will not bring the 26 souls that are no longer with us back. 20 of those who died as innocent children. Who had to look death in the face. Or those 6 brave individuals who died by trying to protect the babies.

So as my heart breaks I'm praying hard for peace, solace, strength... healing. And hope.


Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Christmas delight!

Can you believe that were are only a little over 10 days away from Christmas?

Did I just make you panic? :)

Anyhow, I apologize for my absence. This time of year is full of craziness!

Josh and I still haven't had a chance to celebrate our anniversary... but we were able to spend some extra time together these last four days and it has been so nice.

Josh and I work hard on our marriage. Sometimes its easier then others.

After all we have been through this year it has taken a toll on us as a couple. I have struggled with whether to write about this, but, I've always promised honesty. I believe we go through things to grow us and to prepare us to minister to others. It's the circle of God miraculous plans.

My pastor last night at our ladies Christmas celebration mentioned a story she heard a minister tell. He was suffering with great pain, and instead of being in desperation about the pain he stopped and prayed. Thinking this pain was for a purpose. Shortly after this a man came to him experiencing the same exact pain. This minister could relate to him now because he had been through the same thing.

When she said this I realized that I could not hold this in. The season in our marriage is no FUN. There I said it. We have argued, felt disconnected, discouraged, out of sorts.

But, we are talking, working, praying, reading the word... Clinging to God and making him first.

Without him in the center we will not have the marriage God wants us to have.

We are still in-love. and crazy about one another. That hasn't changed.

We have changed though..

Lets face it, life is tough. And this year has been exceptionally tough.

I've learned a very big lesson. Grief is a POWERFUL emotions. It affects every aspect of your life.

It has affected our marriage in a big way. And that's OK. There are seasons to everything including your relationships. Every relationship.

We recognize the enemy is out to still and destroy. We are not letting him have us.

God has been so good to both of us. With J's promotion and my new job! I praise him for his love, grace, and mercy!

Not sure why I felt the need to share this... But its OK that we have bad days. Or we may feel "out of sorts" ... Cling to God and his word.

As we continue on the pursuit of closeness with God we will in turn become closer...

Have a happy Wednesday!

Friday, December 7, 2012

Fridays Letters

Linking up with Ashley for Friday letters :)
Dear week, you have been ddrraaggiinngg
Dear self, I worry about you...what a weird week.
Dear job, your awesome but exhausting
Dear dad and mom, was great riding with you yesterday
Dear J, I love you
Dear o and e, you both were so cute last night!
Dear HCF, love all of our Christmas activities!
Dear S, I'm trying to be happy for you.
Dear God, please help me not to let the bitterness and jealousy take over. I'm a work in progress, be with me.
Dear J, just wanted to say I love you again <3
Dear Jlaw Incorporated, I'm looking forward to your dinner ;)

have a great weekend!

Love, Aunt LaLa

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Random Wednesday

Here is a bunch of random pictures :)

So it took me 2 nights to catch up on my sleep from the weekend. Is that normal? Lol

Even though I've only read, read, and read student files I'm really enjoying my new job.

Looking forward to finishing decorating our tree

Looking forward to play practice... This year is going to be halarious!

I love holidays!!

Happy Wednesday!

Monday, December 3, 2012

Out of Sorts

What a wonderful weekend... but I'm exhausted. Working both jobs, getting up extra early, J working at different locations, twisting my ankle, then a weekend packed full of parties, and no sleep.

So today now I'm feeling a little tired and out of sorts. It was my first day at my new job by myself. It was so much fun even though all I did was meet people and read student files.

So Saturday was our five year anniversary. And we didn't get to celebrate together. We tried Friday night but that didn't work. We were both exhausted and so tired that neither felt very romantic or celebratory. So after 2 hours of just driving around and talking we ended up just going to the groceries store and buying snacks... went home and watched our wedding video. The next day was our actual anniversary which I left early that morning to head to a family reunion. Josh had to work. By the time he made it to the destination in another state to pick me up it was late in the afternoon. After that we left to my best buds birthday party

(((HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELANIE!!!!!)))

Which was a great time... and not going to bed until 3:30 and then up at 10:30... only to leave from there and drive back home to make it to a Christmas party for the leadership at our church.

So yes, maybe I'm just feeling out of sorts because

I'm tired
Haven't spent any quality time with J
I've changed jobs

There is just so much....Things I don't feel the need to write here.

So if you would prayers for me to get out off this funk would be appreciated...

Until tomorrow


Saturday, December 1, 2012

5 year anniversary

Happy 5 year anniversary to one of the sweetest, gentle, humble, big hearted, godly, funny, loving, sexy man I have ever known...

And I get to spend the rest of my life with him...

I love you Joshua Aaron

Love, your funyungrl

Friday, November 30, 2012

So Long Farewell...

(From the Sound of Music... one of my favs)

Today is my last day at a job that I have been at for a couple years. As this day was approaching I have wondered how I would feel.

I feel bittersweet...

I know that some may think I'm crazy... I'm just changing jobs. But I guess I should tell you why this is a BIG milestone in my life.

You see, when I came to this job I had suffered a breakdown of sorts. I was diagnosed with PTSD. I was living a life in a anxiety filled world. Let me tell you, if you don't have anxiety be so thankful. This disorder can be crippling.

I was not able to work, I had to resign from a very good job. For 6 months I worked on getting better. I needed to work again, or we would lose everything. Josh and I prayed. Then I received a message from our Pastor saying they needed someone in the office and would I be interested.

I wept. Because I knew that I could do this job. I would be around people I knew and that loved me. I would be close to home.

Well, here I am 2 years and some odd months later. I'm resigning from this job not because of anxiety but because God has blessed me with a even better job then I had before. And the biggest blessing...

I AM AT PEACE.

When you live with anxiety you value those times when you can live at peace. I praise God for these last couple years to grow and be stronger. God knew exactly where I needed to be...

Do I still deal with anxiety? YOU BET. Everyday... But as I've grown, prayed,  and went through some counseling I have learned to handle it. I still have bad days, especially when grief hits me.

But God has never left myside...

So here is to a new chapter!

A new job, celebrating 5 years of marriage tomorrow, visiting family and friends this weekend, and our first Christmas celebration!! :)

Have a blessed weekend!


Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Identity

What makes you?

If you had to say one thing that makes you, you what would that be?

I have been really thinking about this subject.

What makes up my life?
What defines me?
 If a certain item is taken away from life where would that leave me.

Family may define you. Faith may define you..... or your spouse, kids, job, friends...

What SHOULD define us?

I would like to think that every aspect of our life is makes us who we are... Some things more than others.

I think sometimes we are unhealthy in the way certain things define us. Such as a bad past.. it gave experience and altered you but doesn't have to DEFINE you..

Me and God are hashing this out.

And I would love to hear your thoughts on this...

What defines you?

What SHOULD define you?


Please comment below or let me know on Facebook :)


Monday, November 26, 2012

Flu be gone!

We are alive. Today I got out. I had to work both jobs today...so residing on my couch again wasn't going to work...

So alas...I made it and now am waiting on the hubs to get off... so sorry this post isn't going to have much to it


Let me show you a song I like... and that I read about in a book this week...

Friday, November 23, 2012

Friday's Letters

Joining up with Ashley Adventures of the Newlyweds... (Sorry don't have the button. Blogging from my phone)

Dear flu, You stink. I don't appreciate you visiting our home.
Dear laryngitis, did you have to join flu?
Dear blogger friends, I might be absent in my commenting and such.
Dear body, thanks for at least holding out to be such until the night of Thanksgiving.
Dear J, at least we are together sick... we did say we haven't had any quality time lol
Dear God, please touch our bodies

Until...Well, whenever
Love Aunt LaLa

Thursday, November 22, 2012

Happy Thanksgiving

I'm thankful for...
My Jesus, my God, my savior
husband
niece and nephews
siblings
Love that surrounds me
Grandparents who I treasure
Parents who love me unconditionally
Church family who are like my blood family
My baby, Hope, who I will one day hold and kiss
New job
There are so many blessings in my life, so many things I'm thankful for I couldn't name them all
Happy Thanksgiving from us!!

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Flight of the Bumblebees

Ever hear that song Flight of the Bumblebees?

That's what I feel should be my theme song for the week. It's been crazy busy and emotional.

Yet, as I sit here in the hospital waiting for a family member I feel so blessed.

The family member is only having a routine procedure... nothing serious. I'm thankful.

The fact I have had events and people to fill my life this week makes me thankful.

I got to have lunch with the greatest grandparents by myself. I'm thankful.

I'm thankful I made it through yesterday and today is better.

I also got a special gift from my grandparents that they made for me.
"So that I can take Hope with me"

Until tomorrow...
Love, Aunt LaLa

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

An Ache

I haven't really talked much about Hope here lately. Its not that I don't think about her. In fact she has been on my mind quiet frequently. The 15th came and left and I didn't even remember it was the 15th. It has been 6 months since we lost our Hope. Even though it has gotten easier the grief hits me out of no where sometimes.

Like yesterday. I was shopping for Thanksgiving groceries and I thought while I was there I would look in the man's clothing to see if I seen anything that caught my eye for Josh for Christmas. As I was walking through that section I walked right into the baby section. I turned that buggy so fast and practically ran from there.

The air escaped my lungs.

I have so much to be thankful for. And I am. As much as I smile, pray, and enjoy my family there will be something missing. I should be around 6 months pregnant.

I was realistic about how I would feel during the Holidays. Thinking it was going to be painful... but the ache of a hole in my heart is just so big words can't describe it.

I see people pregnant and who have children that I don't think should... I read these students files yesterday thinking why did these parents get children??

Alas, I reel myself back in. I qoute scriptures to myself or pray and have a good cry. Grief makes you feel so alone. It makes any emotion much more then they are. But it is a process.

I'm looking forward to this fun season ahead. God has blessed us so greatly. He has done more for me then I'm worthy of. His grace and mercies are forever...

I'm holding on to that... but I'm human... and my human self wants to be feeling my babies kicks... not the emptiness of my womb.

Sorry for the heavy post... But as you know by reading this blog I can't pretend...

So until tomorrow... Hug your babies extra tight





Monday, November 19, 2012

Pilgrims, Indians, puppets, and Lots of food


Friday night was AMAZING! 

Our Children's Ministry team decided that this fall we were going to try and show the kids what the first Thanksgiving was like. All the teachers and helpers who were able to come dressed up! 

We told the story through puppets, showed them authentic toys, and even had a reactments of the prayer over the food. We had Teepees, fake fire, make your own butter... Just look at the fun! 

This is a total photo dump :) Thank you to the photographer.. My lovely grandmother! :)

O and her buddy playing the teepee! Aren't they adorable?
Yummy food!!
This was the table. It was set up on the floor. Research showed that it was unlikely that they had tables to sit at. 


The puppets
The puppeteers! "And their pilgrim friend completed them"
E and M giving bye hugs and kisses!
Me, O , and E... my Grandma made their outfits! Aren't they adorable? 

Pastor Chief Ken (smile)

My dear friend (and fellow pilgrim) Teresa and I

Table of toys that were played by the children during this time period and books for the kids to read

The pilgrim and her futurist hubby (He had to work and didn't get to dress up... but wait until next time)

This teepee was for the kids to draw and decorate!

It was such a fun night!

Saturday was O's birthday party for our side of the family and she HAD to go to Chuck E. Cheese... But I'll save THAT photo dump for tomorrow :)

Have a great Monday!


Friday, November 16, 2012

Friday's Letters

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Dear new job, I could hardly contain my excitement this morning. I was in a real to goodness BIG GIRL meeting today!

Dear J, I so miss. I think some quality time is needed.

Dear Grandma and Mom, THANK THANK YOU for working on my pilgrim costume!

Dear Bloggie friends, I was so excited to have some new followers this week!

Dear self, let me just tell you... you rock. God is opening doors for you. Walk through. Head held high. Rest in his peace.

Dear other job, I can't promise I'm not going to cry buckets when I leave. I love it here. I love working with my church family.

Dear J, Did I mention that I love you? I'm so excited for the doors that are opening for us!

Dear God, You simply amaze me. Your so wise. Thank you for keeping me close.

That's all folks!! :)

Come Monday I will be sharing the pics and details from our Thanksgiving Celebration at our church... With me in costume :)


Thursday, November 15, 2012

It's Thursday, Lets talk about Wednesday


So if you follow me on Instagram then your know yesterday was exciting!

I became official at my new J-O-B! Got my paperwork done, my drug test, and I got my "official" badge/ID.

Can we say excited!!??? YES WE CAN!! Looking forward toward this new door God has opened!

I noticed that I have 2 new followers! Welcome :) I'm so excited to see what place my little 'ole' blog has in God's plan.

Yesterday Josh was off and hung out with me while I was getting all this stuff done. Our schedules can get so busy. Life can really crowd us ... we have just felt disconnected. But we are continuing to pray and find ways to strengthen our marriage.

While we were chillin (I'm such a dork) I was messing up my words ALL day.. Here are just a couple that J busted out laughing at :)

~When trying to find our GPS... I asked where our GheePS was! Like Mcghee without the Mc... He found this hilarious!

~We were discussing other people's parenting skills... which always leads to what we want to do with our children. One of the things we talk about a lot is to protect and shield them , but not so much to where its crippling. To find that balance. As we are discussing seriously... I loudly said

"Come on people let your kid out of the BOWL!"

"Bowl?"

"Wait, I mean bubble!"

Insert hysterics here. I know it was silly but we had a great time! :)


I hope you all have a great Thursday!!

PS I'm totally in this COOL new blog hop! Come join!



Tuesday, November 13, 2012

Stop Yelling!

Funness.... is it a word? Of course it is!

Good news! I heard from HR yesterday!

Getting closer to actually starting the job! YAY!

Tomorrow I'm meeting  with HR for the paperwork. Apply for my badge.

So stinking excited!

I'm still at my current job right now and will be until I'm booted out! Smile. No,  I'm hoping that the schedules do not conflict. However if they do I have the full support to pursue this new job from my current on. They are just awesome like that! I'm going to miss it terribly when that time comes... moving on...

Have you and your significant other or someone you have lived with constantly want to talk to you from the other side of the house? It goes something like this...

J: LAUREN!!

L: What?

J: Lauren!!!?

L:What do ya need?!!

J: What??

L: What! Do! You! Need?!

J: Lauren!!

L: Good greif. (gets up irritably goes to the room where J is) What did you want?

J: I was yelling for you...can you hand me towel, find the blah blah, check the yadda....

You can fill in the blanks! This is something that happens regularly at our house... We are both guilty of it! You would think we would just get up and go to person. Oh boy, laziness always rearing its ugly head.

Thats all for today... See ya tomorrow!




Monday, November 12, 2012

Birthdays, Earthquakes, and painting

I have to have one of those random lives that people look at me like I'm joking when I tell them things.

Maybe I think too much of myself... oh well. I think my life has some quirks! (Smile)

Some thing I've never expeirenced happened Saturday morning! I experienced an earthquake! There was an earthquake in Kentucky and we felt the aftershocks from there passed us to Georgia! If you have ever never expeirenced this... well it is really just.. weird, for lack of a better word

It felt as if someone was standing at the corner of my house and pushing it back and forth. It last for what seemed forever but was probably right under a minute. I really didn't realize until afterward what happened... I thought a big gust of wind and a tree was falling! But everyone was fine, but I believe there was extensive damage in KY. So say a prayer for those folks. I did see a funny pic yesterday on Facebook and I have to share...

I busted out laughing at this one! 


So as you all read my sweet niece O turned 4 Saturday!! Since it was her mothers weekend my brother had her and E for just the afternoon. It was so fun though! We went to the dog park so she could play wither her Pixel and her Tank (my brothers dog and Pixel's brother). Oh they were so snobby... ignoring the other dogs to play together! It was hysterical! We went and had dinner and shopped for birthday presents! :) She picked out some walkie talkies and some sunglasses... Can't wait for her party next weekend!

Pixel was going to see her brother! 

He is never still! and my shutter on my phone is too slow! :)

E loves his memaw!

The birthday girl and I! I love her so!

Yesterday was a calm day... Church, flea market, lunch, then home for the afternoon. I actually did some painting yesterday on our porch which was so relaxing... Good boy J! :) 

(He bought me some canvas's for my birthday so that I can de-stress... smile)

Ended it with a funny conversation with my best bud... and cuddle time with the hubs!


So that was my weekend! How was yours? 

Pixel and Abby had some cuddle time to :)



Saturday, November 10, 2012

Happy 4th Birthday O!!!

My beautiful niece, 

You have brought so much joy to La La's life. I love your sweet smile and sweet spirit. Your love for prayer and worship melts my heart! I will forever love you and be here for you. I will pray for you until my dying day. I hope you have the best birthday ever!! 

Love, 
LaLa
(your favorite person of course)