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Propaganda

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Eh Hem.
**LaLa pulls out her soap box**


I have only hinted at my political views on maybe one or two post in the last 6 years of blogging.
But, I'm concerned.
Really concerned.
I have opinions, actually I have alot to say about the current events in our country.
On our president. On abortion. On illegal immigrants On all sorts of things.
My family would agree.
As I have grown to an adult, my opinions have changed and went back and forth.
Here is the thing...
My heart is grieved at the attitudes of people around me.
The narrowed views. On EVERYSIDE.
This is to the Christians. The people who are to be loving, accepting, and bold for Christ.
I have been so disappointed in the last few years at the attitudes of my fellow soldiers of Christ.
Mine included.
My heart has been convicted.
Where does it end?
Jesus gave us our mission in the book of Matthew - called the GREAT COMMISSION
Jesus came and told his disciples, “I have been given all authority in heaven and on earth.  Therefore, go and make disciples o…

Passion

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I turned 32.
As I do every year I look forward to my birthday. And I ponder.
I think about my life the past year and if I have changed. Am I going into the new year different than the last?
Have you noticed that I have an analytical mind? (smile)
As I have gotten older, one question in particular has gotten louder in my head...
Am I making a difference?
If you hang around here you know Jesus is my number one passion.
Followed by my husband and sweet little boy.
But I am more than just a wife or a mother.
I have to check in with myself every now and then to make sure that I'm being Mindful and doing what God has called me to do as my own person.
Part of my calling is to be a wife, and a mother, but it is also a call to be in the ministry and to grow the kingdom of God.
I want to make a difference. I want to have the kind of Legacy that when people look back on my life after I'm gone that they think "wow, God really showed in her life"
Like my great-grandmother, anyti…

Death to me.

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Death to a precious life I will not meet until Heaven Death to my sense of security Death to what I believed was untouchable Death to my prideful way of thinking Death to a part of me...
I wrote this in my blog "Why Am I Like This?". And wanted to talk a little more about it.
We had a young man share about a loss he experienced with his girlfriend several years ago.
As he was talking my heart was racing and I felt my raw emotions coming up.
In our previous leadership role with the teens we work with we always try to be honest (appropriately) about things  we struggle with. So I did not want to skate over this subject as were talking about something unrelated, but wanted to tie in how it did effect us.
I think one of the biggest impacts that losing Little Bit had was between Josh and I.
I hesitate on sharing this, but Josh does not mind. As he has read and approved what I write when it involves his emotions. If I include him in these post I want to make sure he does not feel…

Never Forgotten

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I am one in four. 15 - 20% of all clinically recognized pregnancies end in miscarriage. That is a large number.
Since June of 2016 our family has had to endure four miscarriages. One being my own.
In my memories on Facebook I seen where I had posted and about the interview with Channel 8 here in East Tennessee. And I shared about the balloon release that we did in 2013.

And I remember getting so much healing from both balloon releases that we did in honor of Hope, and all the other angels that we wrote on our balloons for the ones who could not be with us.
And since I've had Ethan I have not been able to have a balloon release.
The first year that I didn't was because Ethan was just out of the NICU and with the new baby, and being a new mom it was hectic and I was dealing with postpartum.
Then the next year I was enjoying being a mom and honestly did not want to spend my birthday or my birthday month grieving. 
Not that Hope was ever forgotten or we always feel something …

Necessary End

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In a post I mentioned that J and I had resigned as Jr High Youth leaders.

It was not a quick decision. We have loved serving as Jr High Youth Leaders, and have watched several groups move on and now are in college.

We started the Jr High group in August of 2010. I have to admit that first group holds a special place in our hearts.

About a year and half ago J and I both felt God pushing us to something else. We did not feel it was right to leave the Jr High yet, but we felt there was a change coming.

Last year we started helping teach the Sr High and Jr High together.

It was a great learning experience.

And we LOVE our kids at HCF. (Our church)

Then a few months ago, we started feel that pull again, except this time we felt free to resign.

We had not talked with anyone else except for our close friends to help us pray.

Now, we felt released but had no where to go really... there are several areas that we volunteer anyway. But for our main ministry outlet we did know where God was takin…

My Boy

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I have on occasion wrote about E and shared pictures.

He is at the great age where he does all sorts of funny things.

E is the Apple of our eye... And everyone else that knows him.

The love this kid has in his life is so precious. We are so thankful for our family, church family, and friends.

E is blessed with having 3 sets of grandparents! 3!

The spoiling is out control! (Smile)

He loves so big! I get kisses and cuddles. It is safe to say he is a momma's boy. But daddy wins out more and more as he gets older.

But he loves his family. Especially his cousins.

He is so smart! He talks in paragraphs! His vocabulary is pretty extensive for his age.

But I have been talking to him like he could understand me since he was in my womb.

There are times when we have to ask him to be quiet just so J and I can hear each other easier.

He knows his ABCs
He can count to 20

Has some shyness. He is good to high-five but only if he is with someone he is secure with.

The little girls at church get so…

Are we going to make it?

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I have been missing for sometime... but this summer has been INSANE.

In my post "Why am I like this?" I mentioned that we had a crisis at the beginning of the Summer.

Now, that we have moved past it and it is not so fresh I will share.

J suddenly lost his job.

As you may know I stay at home with Ethan, I love it!

I get to really have the opportunity to invest in Ethan and be the one to teach him and instill his love for Jesus.

So it was frightening to think I would lose this.

J was applying and applying. He has so much experience and great work record. But nothing seemed to work out.

Apprehensive does not exactly cover the emotions we were feeling.

But, we serve a mighty God. And we claim to have faith.

So our faith was put into action in a big way.

As our heavenly father always does, he turned something we thought was the beginning of  the end into a Summer of fun and some learning too.

I learned something over this last almost two years. To really trust God. Like…