I was interviewed in October 2013 by WVLT when I organized a balloon release in memory of our sweet babies and to offer a place of healing for parents, family, and friends. Even though you may not hear that parent talk about their babies they lost, the thought of them is not far from their heart. I'm thankful for the healing God has done in my life and my heart. But I miss my two babies in Heaven terribly. I hold them dear to my heart. October is pregnancy and infant loss awareness month and the 15th is PAIL Day. So, Tuesday October 15th at 6:30pm, Josh and I will release balloons for our two sweet babies. Hope (May 2012) and Sarah (September 2016)
If you are are local, your welcome to join us with your balloon. Or if you would like I will write your baby's name on a balloon to release. You can leave the name in the comments, or private message me.
Know that if you are grieving your sweet baby, you are not alone. And having other children does not diminish your love for your baby or babies you lost. It still hurts.
Even though I'm in a busy and blessed season of life, I want to stop and remember my babies. I miss them. I look forward to the day when I can hold them.
Sarah is a wonderful name! And Hope is too. I think the loss of a baby born or not is such a heartbreak. Some handle it with less grief than others but still any level of grief is too much to have to go through. I am so thankful for Ethan and Esther! They bring so much joy to our lives! Love my grandchildren and great grandchildren and hopefully get to meet the great great. Oh my I am old! Love you, old grams
Starting last Monday this week was a complete roller coaster. Not sure if I could ever explain to anyone how painful it has been. I've struggled with if I should write about my experience. To write about something so close to you can make you seem so vulnerable. Writing has always helped me. I've kept a journal since I was nine. I've always been very analytical with my feelings and things going on around me. Which is why I have a journal, a prayer journal, and a blog :) Crazy, I know. I usually don't have much time to write in any of them, but the blog. I wonder how many women suffer silently because of what this one even does to us emotionally, physically, and spiritually. I don't want to suffer alone. I needed to know that what I'm feeling is normal. Even though people can be very sympathetic, some seem like it is no big deal. It was a big deal. And every second with the Lords help I'm making it. Last Monday night I had a miscarriage. Even as I type ...
Whhooossshhhh!!!! That was September already flying by!! Next week I will be in 2 classes at the same time for 3 weeks. Now, I know what your thinking... "Lauren its two classes." Let me just explain here... each class is 6 weeks long, 4 hours each class. So that means every class is crammed with work of a semester. :) So for half of each of my classes I will be in two! That scares me! "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" This is will be my mantra! Plus all the projects I have going at work! EeeEEeekkk!! "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" So this weekend will be full of chores, school, and mayhem projects. What I'm looking forward to is finding my bin of fall decor! Its that time already! I can't wait... I LOVE fall... Pictures to follow :) Now if the weather would just feel like fall that would be fantastic! OK, my blog friends have a great weekend!!
One year ago today a new season in my life was manifested. One year ago this morning around 2am we lost our precious baby. Hope would be around 4 months right now had she been meant to stay on this earth. Even though my heart is broken I feel Gods presence with me today, so strong. Through many talks and prayers with my God, I made it through these last few days without being devastated. Through my obiedance I believe God gave more healing to my heart. Sunday morning was extremely difficult. But I received so much support. Physically, mentally, and spiritually. My sweet friends and family held me hand, rubbed my back, gave me hugs as I stood for the first time as a mom on the stage with the rest of the moms. I can not even begin to describe how much they helped. I know without their support and God's supernatural strength I wouldn't have made it through. As I left service I felt a little lighter, a little bit of that dark grief left. Last night was our women...
Sarah is a wonderful name! And Hope is too. I think the loss of a baby born or not is such a heartbreak. Some handle it with less grief than others but still any level of grief is too much to have to go through. I am so thankful for Ethan and Esther! They bring so much joy to our lives! Love my grandchildren and great grandchildren and hopefully get to meet the great great. Oh my I am old! Love you, old grams
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