Aunt LaLa

Ethan Alexander 9/15/2014 10 lbs. 10 oz Going home outfit! Mommy is happy! First day without any tubes! Love that face! Ethan and mommies first selfie! Daddy finally gets to hold me for the first time! Mommy meeting Ethan for the first time Waiting on Daddy, we are going home!! I know you probably thought I have fell off the face of the earth but actually I was just baking a baby and actually having him! He was born on the 15th of September at 37 weeks. From birth he had several problems and we have been in the NICU for almost 3 weeks.  I have so much I need to write.. but tonight I shall enjoy having my baby home for the first time.  I'm completely in love with my little boy! The Lord be praised for him and healing his body!!

So we are just passed 30 weeks heading to 31 weeks! I cannot believe how fast all of this is flying by. It is getting closer to D-day :) None of the women in my family have made it to 40 weeks. Only to about 37 or 38 weeks. So from ALL the information I read (Which for this over analyzing person is two books, online classes, and many articles) genetics play a big part of all  things delivery. Or I could be the odd gene out and go over 40 weeks (please NO!) ... My guess is the little mister will be here in September. Ethan is measuring a little on the bigger side. His belly is in the 68th percentile! He will be long as well. So... yeah I'm good for 37 weeks :) So, since this is my first time delivering a baby. There are so many options and opinions. As previously stated I've read and read. But I really want to go in informed and know what basic things to expect. I know that there is no way to know exactly what will happen. I found several examples of bi...

That is our Ethan! Oh my heart! He is weighing 3.1 lbs, looks great! So does mommy! Just please keep praying for us. Love  Aunt LaLa

We will be welcoming a baby boy in October! We are so excited!  Here is our announcement we recorded the day we found out... This is our family finding out... Here is the name we picked...  We are so excited about our little Ethan! Our little miracle!!  God is so good and faithful! Can't wait to meet our little guy!  Love,  Ethan's mommy

As your reading this I am at the doctors waiting to be seen to find out if our little one is a boy or girl! I am amazed that we are at this point already! We will be at the half way mark on Monday - 20 weeks!! I will be posting the gender on my facebook personal and blog page on Saturday evening. This is a joyous day to celebrate a miracle. God has blessed us with a miracle... you do realize that? Even on this joyous day, my heart aches. Two years ago today we lost a baby we were not even aware of we had, Hope . My heart bleeds for those who still are in trenches of infertility. My heart bleeds for our loss... Yet , I weep at the love and grace of God. Who would have ever imagined two years ago that I would be feeling the anticipation of seeing my little one in my womb? Not me. Not Josh. I sit here crying over our loss and our blessing! Talk about conflicting emotions. Losing Hope was the darkest place I have ever walked. The deepest pain I have ever felt... Yet as I...

I have a little miracle inside of me, a little precious baby that will have a perfect mix of J and I.... I cannot wait to hug our child and to kiss its sweet little face! My heart was bursting at seeing our child's profile and seeing their mouth opening and closing. Oh my heart!! In saying that, this post may be TMI, just warning you. It may be embarrassing but... I was "warned" you could say. Women told me there would be exhaustion, nauseousness, hormones... And I listened. But I guess I cannot blame them for not being able to put into words the extreme side of these things. Hormones- They said you are emotional, you sometimes want to just punch your hubby, then there are sometimes that all you want to do is be hugged and held. I have never felt so crazy...ever. I remember being told that it is like PMS but worse. Worse? It is so crazy that I would not even compare it with PMS! WOWZER! It felt like I was on a roller coaster! A fast, twisty, upside down coas...

So... even though I'm not extremely showing I want to document every bit of this experience! I LOVE being pregnant! (PS. Don't get excited I only used blue font on the picture because it shows up really well... we STILL don't know the sex yet.)   Do you not just LOVE that little arm! It waved and waved at us at the ultrasound! We even got to see Baby open and closing it's mouth. I've never been so amazed. What a beautiful life that is growing in me. God is so amazing! And faithful, and I'm so so so thankful!    I'm in my second trimester. Baby L is doing really well. Measuring on target. Actually it is measuring 3 days ahead.  The first trimester was a roller coaster.. and to be honest this weeks has not been any different. More about that in the next post. J and I are so excited and can hardly talk about anything else. Our little miracle is growing and growing!  I'm loving my bump! I love looking pregnant! Even though my ...

Congrats to Jenni and Samone!  These lucky ladies won a Happy Wives Club Book! Thanks for entering everyone! Working on a post with all the update of Baby L! We are 12 weeks and going to the Dr. Thursday! New pictures!!  I'm showing my baby bump too! Heehee! So excited! Have to brag on my husband just a minute. He has been so incredibly supportive through this whole process. He has dealt with his own insecurities and fears just like I have, yet he has been my rock. He has been understanding. Husbands, you being there just listening or offering a hug or a kiss on the forehead goes such a long way. Even better, take initiative. When you see stuff piling up around the house chip in and help. I love you J!!    Have a great Wednesday! Love,  Aunt LaLa

I used to do Five Question Friday every week! Loved it! Then I got busy.. then the host took a little break from it... but this week it is back! I loved the questions... so... 1 . I f I had 5 minutes alone with Mother Nature I would tell her? PICK A SEASON ALREADY!! Here in E. Tennessee there has been a confusion. It has been hard core winter than awesome spring... back to we are expecting snow... AGAIN. I'm tired of the cold! And I've always loved Winter! But enough. I'm ready for Spring!  2. If you could eat only one thing for a whole week what would it be? Wow, one week? That's all. Hmmm. Well it would have to be filling. Because when I'm hungry it is not a pretty sight! I would say a cheese and carb mix. Maybe a casserole of some kind. That would do me. I hope.   3. W hat is your favorite season and why? Spring... everything comes alive. I feel so happy during the Spring! I love it. It is not too hot or too cold... Its just perfect. Even thought...

 Baby L at 8 weeks. Was not expecting another ultrasound. Was so excited to hear that heart beat again! 176 BPM! Strong baby! We are 9 weeks today and Baby L graduated to a Fetus today! Baby L is a size of a grape. Before your pregnant you hear all kinds of stories and advice.  I'm only about 4 weeks away from the second trimester and honestly I cannot wait!  The dangers go drastically down in the second trimester and that is really what I get mainly worried and upset about.  I have not really felt like sharing, I guess not knowing where to even start. In early January I was feeling awful. I was so emotional. I knew something was wrong with me. Honestly I was so worried. My anxiety was crazy, I was overwhelmed. All I could do was sleep. I did not know what was going on. I noticed some changes in my body. I actually made an appointment to talk with someone, that is how worried I was.  Well in December I was late, and purchases a che...

Going into new ground during this season. Josh and I have been a Family of Two for over 6 years now. Adding a little bundle of joy has been a dream of ours for so long, and we are so thrilled.. of course that shocks you? :) After all this is sinking in we are entering a territory we know nothing about!  We will be a family of three in October. That is daunting. Josh and I love each other and are passionate about our marriage. We both have talked about what our marriage will look like after the baby.  I'm so thankful because I have so much family and friends that care and love us, I know we won't be alone in this journey! To those who have a healthy marriage any advice for this new mom to be or maybe a book you recommend? I'm all about learning and I do realize a book cannot teach me everything but it could help! :) Please positive comments only, this pregnant lady is very sensitive and emotional!  Love,  Aunt LaLa

Mom took this pic of me last Friday! Those squiggly lines are the babies heartbeat!  Oh it is the most wonderful sound I have ever heard!  I'll never forget that moment of when I heard the heart beat and seen tears pouring down Josh's face.  We have been so heartbroken at times and discouraged. All through everything Josh has been my rock.  All through January when I thought I was losing my mind he was there helping me through it. To see one of his dreams fulfilled as he heard his babies heartbeat for the first time is a moment I'll treasure.  There will be so much change in our lives this year. I graduate in May and then... our baby will be here in the Fall. Cousin getting married. New nephew being born.  Such happy times ahead!!    But I have to add this in... it is on my heart. When I announced our pregnancy on here I could not help to think of all the other women who were reading that post feeling forgotten ...

How do I even tell you that ... WE ARE PREGNANT!!! OK that was easy!!  Yesterday was the best day of my life this far. We got to hear the heartbeat of our little baby. I can't even describe the emotions we felt as tears poured down our face listening to the sweetest sound I have ever known. God has given us a miracle. We are pregnant without any help of drugs, fertility treatments. Do you realize how amazing that is? God has heard our cries...our family and friends prayers! He loves us oh how he loves us!! Valentine's Day 2014, was the best day of our lives. I know there are many more to come. Here are a few pictures from yesterday! Without further ado everyone meet baby Lawson!