Showing posts from January, 2016

This was hard to write

I wrote this post last month actually... and I felt it needed some editing. Here is the finished post. I didn't change the ending because in the moment of writing this God was working on my heart and turned my pity party into a very humble and personal moment... I hope it touches your heart in some way.
These past couple weeks have been harder for me. Not sure if it's my sweet natured baby is now yelling, pitching fits, hitting when he is mad... Sigh. Then I was sick. Then hormones are acting up. 
Whatever the cause I've really missed my life being just Josh and I.  I miss being able to stay on the phone for way too long with my best friend. I miss being in school.  I miss the camraderie of my cohort. I miss being able to enjoy going to work. 
I would not change having Ethan. My BIG little miracle. The gift of being a mommy is one of the greatest gifts. I love him so much. But being a mommy sometimes is lonely. There is a sacrifice to being a mom. It is hard. 
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Good-bye 2015

This has been such a different year! Our first year as parents and being a family of three! There have been so many memories and first. There have been some difficult times but there has been a difference in me and J.
I have felt I know God in a different way. My walk with God has a different closeness... I have a better understanding of who God is.
This year has been a personal journey of growth. Maybe not so much of an outward change but a change on the inside.
I've learned that I can be stretched more than I ever have emotionally, physically, and mentally as a parent, wife, and woman. 
This year can be summed up as being a learning year. Yeah, a learning year.. learning. Here is just a recap
1. Parenting can be tough  2. You really can go on very little sleep
3. Nothing is more frustrating then not knowing how to help your baby when they cry and can not tell you why. 4. One of the greatest feelings is a hug from your baby boy

5. Hearing my boy say "Mama" was more spec…