I am amazed that we are at this point already! We will be at the half way mark on Monday - 20 weeks!!
I will be posting the gender on my facebook personal and blog page on Saturday evening.
This is a joyous day to celebrate a miracle. God has blessed us with a miracle... you do realize that?
Even on this joyous day, my heart aches. Two years ago today we lost a baby we were not even aware of we had, Hope. My heart bleeds for those who still are in trenches of infertility. My heart bleeds for our loss...
Yet , I weep at the love and grace of God. Who would have ever imagined two years ago that I would be feeling the anticipation of seeing my little one in my womb? Not me. Not Josh.
I sit here crying over our loss and our blessing! Talk about conflicting emotions.
Losing Hope was the darkest place I have ever walked. The deepest pain I have ever felt...
Yet as I faced this time last year thinking and wondering how was I going to make it through Mothers Day, the 15th, Josh's birthday on the 17th, Fathers day... our hearts bruised and crushed by our lost dream.
But Joy comes in the mornings my friends... because I did not have to walk through this month in that same mind frame. I was able celebrate Mothers Day... and tomorrow I find out if we are having a boy or a girl. Our miracle! Saturday to celebrate Josh we revealing the gender of our little one and the name!
I'm just awestruck at God's timing...
He is giving us ...
Joy where there is sorrow
Peace where there is pain
Love where there has been brokenness
I'm completely and indescribably thankful. I'm choosing to celebrate tomorrow! Celebrate this new season and I will celebrate Hope and what she brought to us.