I have a little miracle inside of me, a little precious baby that will have a perfect mix of J and I.... I cannot wait to hug our child and to kiss its sweet little face! My heart was bursting at seeing our child's profile and seeing their mouth opening and closing. Oh my heart!!
In saying that, this post may be TMI, just warning you. It may be embarrassing but...
I was "warned" you could say. Women told me there would be exhaustion, nauseousness, hormones...
And I listened. But I guess I cannot blame them for not being able to put into words the extreme side of these things.
Hormones- They said you are emotional, you sometimes want to just punch your hubby, then there are sometimes that all you want to do is be hugged and held. I have never felt so crazy...ever. I remember being told that it is like PMS but worse. Worse? It is so crazy that I would not even compare it with PMS! WOWZER!
Then there is pregnancy rage! An anger and irritation that you cannot control. This one is the most bothersome to me. Seriously, I'm not an angry person... but lately I'm realizing how annoying people can be! LOL Then I cry because I feel so bad... Sounds so fun right?
Exhaustion- I have not felt like walking from the couch to the bathroom! No kidding, at times getting gas for the car seems like the most insane tiring task of my life. Falling asleep and taking naps all the time. My house... a disaster zone. Then add school, I have never wanted to NOT write a paper or presentation so bad than these last couple months. My poor cohort have heard my complaints... My famous saying "I just don't care" This coming from an overachiever!
Nausea- Think about a stomach bug that was so bad you thought it would never end.. times that about 1000.... then you have what I was feeling. It woke me up in the middle of the night. Now I'm thankful, SOO thankful I never got sick. Yes, Nausea was BAD! Waking up thinking that my stomach will never feel the same is not fun. I really feel for the women who suffer from morning sickness, which by the way can come at ANYTIME not just the morning.
Ready for the TMI??
Gas, no one, I mean NO ONE told me how horrible my gas would be. We store oxygen in our muscles, and when you are pregnant your muscles start to relax therefore releasing horrible gas. I have been so embarrassed! HAHA! It hurts too, it gets stuck and oh that is not fun!
Constipation- This one is bad. I've heard worse stories so I'm thankful I haven't suffered much. But your running out of room in your stomach so you feel full and bloated... but you can't seem to DOODOO anything about it. Oh yes the fun times!
I know your thinking WOW that sounds horrible! Why would I want to be pregnant... even though there is truth in all this nothing compares to the joy of being pregnant. I promise.
All of the sudden you start seeing your body change. Breast get bigger, your belly starts changing... Oh my goodness. I am AMAZED at how our bodies naturally just change and know what to do to include and grow a life in your body. There is a HUMAN BEING in you, a soul growing inside you.
Then you feel your baby. You feel something inside of you moving. A flutter, butterflies, it is just indescribable!
To see your baby move its arms and turn over on a ultrasound at just 12.6 weeks! Or opening and closing its mouth. Even though I'm having a little fun and wanting others to feel they are not alone in this pregnancy discomforts, I'm completely in-love and thankful for my child. I would take all these things over and over.
When you suffer from infertility then you get pregnant, there is this pressure not to be honest about the feeling down, overwhelmed, tired, or saying "Pregnancy is HARD"
Guess what? This doesn't mean I'm less thankful or I love my baby less because I say "Pregnancy is HARD" but I also say "Pregnancy is a beautiful and MIRACULOUS event"
So any pregnancy stories you want to share? Or what were/are your experiences?
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