WVLT Interview

So at 5:45 J and I pulled ourselves out of bed and waiting anxiously for my interview to be shown!

Then there it was, I have to be honest I was nervous, excited, and even though I'm celebrating Hope my heart was hurting.

I'm so thankful for the support I recieve from my husband, family, and friends. I pray that the 15th at the balloon release there will be peace and a step toward healing for other women.

I feel many mixed emotions right now! One of them is excited, I know God opened this door and I cannot wait to see what he is going to do in Josh and I's lives.

Here is to my sweet baby, I love you Hope with all my heart.


In the video I show my heart. This heart is from A Heart to Hold. They are an amazing organization. Their mission is:
To offer comfort to families who have experienced pregnancy and infant loss by creating and sharing the gift of a weighted handmade heart.
I love my heart and it stays close to me. I'm so grateful to have recieved it. 
The certificate I show is from The Shrine of The Holy Innocence. I took this from their website:
Often children who have died before birth have no grave or headstone, and sometimes not even a name. At The Church of The Holy Innocents, we invite you to name your child(ren) and to have the opportunity to have your baby's name inscribed in our "BOOK OF LIFE". Here, a candle is always lit in their memory. All day long people stop to pray. On the first Monday of every month, our 12:15pm Mass is celebrated in honor of these children and for the comfort of their families
Hope's certificate sits in our house where I can see it everyday. 

What a roller coaster of emotions today.... 
Love Aunt LaLa

Comments

  1. sleelyOctober 10, 2013 at 7:54 AM

    Why was I nervous for you? I felt your emotions I guess because when you hurt, I hurt, when your happy makes me happy! LOve you

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  2. SherryOctober 10, 2013 at 2:55 PM

    Wow! Go Lauren! I loved getting to hear your voice after all this time. It feels like I really got a chance to know you better through that video. You were amazing, and you are such an inspiration to me. I am going to have to look into how we can do something like this in our area if there isn't already something. Love you, friend!

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