Distraction to focused
It's so hard to concentrate on work or school while I'm fighting these spiritual battle.
I went to a grief and loss session and so much came out of me I didn't even realize was there.
A big hugs boulder in my life that I chained myself to that was literally sucking the life out of me. Its been a crazy time.
I am working through it. So bare with me, as I am feeling a tad overwhelmed with it all.
I've made yet another resolution to my attempt at processing my grief.
I'm only taking one day at a time.
Don't tell me to be strong, because right now its ok if I'm not. I've posted several times about being an expert at "Pushdownism". And if I continue with that state of mind I'm going to be even more unhealthy then I was before losing Hope.
I'm working on not comparing. Comparing how much better of a mom I would be then so and so.
My heart cries out "God! I've been faithful to you! Why must I suffer this way?"
Then I'm reminded of so many that have lost so much more then I. Like Job, he lost everything but his own life.
I don't have answers and I don't understand.
But I must continue on trusting God, or trying to.
So please pray for me during this time. I know that God has great things planned for Josh and I.. he promises me that in Jeremiah 29:11-14.
So aside from this solemn post here is a funny picture I found of Josh right after we were married :)