Burntout

I'm not sure where, who, what...I've never been here in this season of my life.

I've never been 28 (almost)
I've never been a college graduate (almost)
I've never been so confused about what to do with my life... 

Frustrating to say the least when I feel like totally abandoning all my plans because they are just not what I want anymore as far as career wise and my education. It is just seeming a little overwhelming. 

I've aspired to be this great blogger, but I have not blogged like I've wanted. 

Honestly getting on here talking about my soul searching has not really seemed appealing to me. I guess because I am not sure what to write! LOL 

I have had everything planned out... but my parents were right it seems, the older you get the less you know or have figured out. 

I keep thinking about graduating. What will I do with my life? What do I really want to do? 

I've always struggled with the what I want to do compared to what I SHOULD do? I usually have a overwhelming conscientious personality... and lean toward the should.

I should be content in my job right now. But I am not. There is just something stirring in me that wants change. Does that make sense? 

It has everything that in retrospect I've wanted to do.However it is not a job I would stay at forever. 
1. It has to be renewed every year and I'm only approved for through May
2. No benefits
3. Not full time

But it does pay decent. But money is not something I'm willing to base my life on. 

Now I'm rambling :) 

As you can see I'm conflicted!! That is not even touching the iceberg with my education. Do I continue or do focus on my career without going to graduate school?



Enough complaining! I'm truly blessed with so much. I'm a rich woman indeed. 

 I have an amazing husband, family, and friends. God has been so good to me. I know he will help me and lead me. 

Please be in prayer for my friend S her mother is fighting cancer, they just found out this past weeks. They need God's touch. 

Happy Monday!

Aunt LaLa

Comments

  1. Lauren, this truly touched my heart, and I will be praying for you. I know how hard it is to be at a point in your life where you are confused about where you are being led to go next. It truly teaches us to "lean not on our own understanding!" I guess it is at these places where we are truly being tested to put our faith in God to guide us where He wants us to be. Of course, that place may not look at all like we have planned and it may not even look very appealing so it can be a scary venture. I can't say I have ever been the best at trusting but know that my thoughts and prayers are with you. I want to see what ever is in store for you guys because you deserve the very best!

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  2. You'll figure it out babe!! One day at a time! God gives us our love for something and gives us our knowledge and talent to conquer our dreams. You will be fine, just finish school and let God lead. Love you

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