My heart with Fridays Letters
I had to write tonight. My heart has been breaking over these past two day. I miss our baby more then ever. Today was a rough day.
*Stepping up on soapbox* I'm reminded daily of mothers who are blessed with these children and they don't care. They aren't concerned with their welfare first, no, they think of themselves. This enrages me. Because I'm without my child and they could care less about theirs. Your children are being intrusted to you to raise right and to love. NOT neglect, push aside, and consider a nuisance. I wish with all my heart that I could have my precious one.I don't. *Stepping down off soapbox*
On our way home we got a flat tire. This is a normal stress of life. And surprisingly dealing with my grief in the big picture a flat tire isn't really that big of deal.
Sorry I'm rambling. Anyhow I received an email from A Heart To Hold . This organization is doing something priceless. If you haven't lost a child this may seem odd to you. However, through my own experience I can't wait to hold my heart. My arms and heart ache for our child. I'm just so thankful to them. Right now there are 600 families who are waiting for A Heart To Hold.
If you know someone who has suffered this kind of loss be kind to them. Let them talk about their baby even if it makes you uncomfortable. Acknowledge that if the baby was a week or full term it was their child.
*Stepping up on soapbox* I'm reminded daily of mothers who are blessed with these children and they don't care. They aren't concerned with their welfare first, no, they think of themselves. This enrages me. Because I'm without my child and they could care less about theirs. Your children are being intrusted to you to raise right and to love. NOT neglect, push aside, and consider a nuisance. I wish with all my heart that I could have my precious one.I don't. *Stepping down off soapbox*
On our way home we got a flat tire. This is a normal stress of life. And surprisingly dealing with my grief in the big picture a flat tire isn't really that big of deal.
Sorry I'm rambling. Anyhow I received an email from A Heart To Hold . This organization is doing something priceless. If you haven't lost a child this may seem odd to you. However, through my own experience I can't wait to hold my heart. My arms and heart ache for our child. I'm just so thankful to them. Right now there are 600 families who are waiting for A Heart To Hold.
If you know someone who has suffered this kind of loss be kind to them. Let them talk about their baby even if it makes you uncomfortable. Acknowledge that if the baby was a week or full term it was their child.
Dear Baby, Oh how mommy loves you.
Dear J, thanks for being understanding.
Dear O, E, J - Lala loves you and prays for you.
Dear K,M,R- Remember your children should come before your needs. They need you. Love them like you should.
Dear G, We all love you. And cherish you. Don't be down it worries me.
Dear Ovaries, Its time to start OVULATING!!
Dear Blog friends, Thank you for your encouraging words and sticking with me :)
Dear J, I love you.
Dear Jesus, Your all I need. Thank you for giving me that little gift tonight. <3
Happy Blogging!
I found this prayer today. I believe the Lord wants to bless you and give you your hearts desires if it be his will and I believe it is...Pray everday..
ReplyDeleteAlmighty Creator, hear this fertility prayer and the wishes of my heart.
You know my deep desire for a child -- a little one to love and to hold, to care for, to cherish. Grant that my body may conceive and give birth to a beautiful, healthy baby. Guide me in all my choices so that this conception, my pregnancy and my baby's birth are in line with Your will. Heavenly Father, Please hear this prayer of my heart, mind and spirit. In Jesus Name I pray. Amen!
So sweet, Lauren! I don't mind at all "listening" to you talk about your precious baby, and of course, I am firm believer that your baby and all others who don't make are alive and well in heaven with Jesus! Blessings to you, and I can't wait to see your journey to parenthood unfold! :-)
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