Mind you I realize that some are at a loss for words. But sometimes a simple, "I'm sorry" - "How are you doing" - "praying for you"... Those things help. I don't need your counsel, I don't need you to act like it never happened either. Because every time there is a smile on my face my heart is still hurting.
Maybe its just the way I am, but even when I see someone hurting I don't know I try at least offer some kind of comfort. Even when its uncomfortable. I think when we are proclaiming to follow Christ we must get out of our comfort zone.
It's not easy for me to be so transparent on here, however, it helps me to write and a women might come across this blog. She might not feel alone, or be comforted in some way.
I'm not trying to offend, I'm just hurting. This is how I feel at the moment. Disappointed. Hurt. Sad. and today's new emotion, anger.
I'm so thankful to have our new home to concentrate on. Then I feel guilty for not thinking about or crying over our baby. We are moving from the place where I was pregnant with him/her. Even though not the most beautiful of memories, they are the only ones I have of the baby. That is difficult. I'm tired of feeling guilty for being sad. I know its my own guilt fortunately no one has told me to get over it. Not sure how I would react to that.
So today, is chalked up to a sad/angry day. I know tomorrow will be anew.
Please pray for Josh and I. The conflicting emotion through all these events and transitions is obviously tiring.
For (A)His anger is but for a moment,
His (B)favor is for a lifetime;
Weeping may (C)last for the night,
But a shout of joy comes in the morning.