So I've been struggling with finding joy in anything I do. Things that would be pleasant to me just seem mundane and unenjoyable. Did I mention this blog was going to be a bit transparent... well I'm saying again (smile)
I'll be honest here, I don't feel like breaking out of this. I want to go home crawl in bed. And just lay there. However, I AM making my self GO. I'm trying different things to give me some joy. I work on my house, go for a walk out side, cuddle with Abby, and spend time with Josh. Which is hard during the week. I want to spend all my time with him, but thats not realistic. I pray continuously through the day. Through this I've noticed a change in my personal relationship with Christ... it seems more intimate then it ever has before. There are no fake prayers, no pharisee prayers. I pray in desperation, to be comforted, sometimes just pour out my heart. Then there are times when I just listen and let God comfort me.
I've decided to start looking forward to things in the future. For Instance I signed up today with a HUGE gift exchange between bloggers! I can't wait!!