No Resolutions...

It is the 2nd of the new year. 2013 is here.

All around me I hear people saying what they are changing this year... what they plan to do... what is going to make this different.

As I have reflected on this year I realize that I do not want to make plans. I don't want to make resolutions to only break them.

So, I'm just going to live. To take one day at a time. To try my best.

Which in a way I guess is a plan of sorts.


I want to live my life this year and enjoy it. Not to be walking around with a shadow of grief and disappointment. Sometimes I feel like a broken record when I talk about Hope or being pregnant. But I knew January was going to be a difficult month. I would have had my Hope at the end of this month. I should be getting ready to welcome a new born. but I'm walking into a year with out her.

I'm obviously not my chipper self and I am not staying here in this down mood... but its something that is showing.

I will cling to the Lord for he is my hope, strength, and rock.

I'm looking forward to a better job, better marriage, and God doing new things.


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  1. sleelyJanuary 2, 2013 at 2:16 PM

    You said, "He is my "Hope"! So I looked up hope on the internet and one of the sites said, "to expect with confidence". I pondered on that a while and realized that it means the same thing as "faith"! EXPECT WITH CONFIDENCE! I always thought that hope and wish meant the same thing, a big "maybe" but it doesn't at all. Am I slow or what?
    xoxo grams

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