what's worse?

 Fathers Day approaches I'm not sure what hurts worse. Another holiday to remind us of the hole we carry around. Or seeing my husband suffer. I know he is hurting. Honestly it makes my heart break into a million pieces to see him hurt.

There are no words I can say to take away his pain. Nothing I can do to relieve his pain. I do understand what he is feeling. All the questions, thoughts, and emotion.

I'm reminded of my last post. I can't do anything. Only Good can give the peace that we both look for everyday we are with out our baby.

Dads suffer too when a baby is lost. They feel a connection to that child just we do... it may be different but there is one.

Men also express this differently. J doesn't show what he feels like I do... but the hole is there all the same.

J, I love you. Thank you for taking care of me and providing for our family. I'm sorry your suffering and I know you are hurting. One day I know we will be parents... and you my love will be a fantastic father. Oxox

Please remember my hubby in your prayers.

Staying Hopeful,

Aunt LaLa