In one moment of life everything can change...
The things you were concerned about fall by the wayside...
My last post was asking for prayer for my father-in-law (FIL). I do appreciate the prayers for him and the kind words. I'm grateful and yet fearful at what they found. He will have to have triple bypass surgery along with another procedure to fix a vein behind his heart.
You can imgine the feelings of anxiousness when they wheeled him back to his room and told us the procedure could not be done instead he would have to have this life altering surgery.
We sat and talked to the doctors and surgeons. Listening to the pro-cons, statistics, family history... that is when I felt my heart go to my throat and almost lost it.
My FIL was talking about his dad having a massive heart attack in his thirties. J is 32.
I thought I would lose it right there. J is my life. I can not imagine what I would do if....
So as I am sitting there I was feeling anger, anxiousness, worry, and plain FEAR.
Angry... for not being more concerned for our health, anxiousness for all that was going on and what would happen over the next couple of months.... worry and fear.. came along for the ride with the rest of my emotions.
I looked at J, and I know he could hear my thoughts most of them his own.
We left the room to give his dad and mom some time. As we found a corner to be by ourselves. Things are going to change starting immiediatly.
Grocery list changed. My drive to be healthier changed. My drive to push J changed. Exercising changing. At one point in my anxiousness I told him and I qoute
"If I have to be the biggest naggiest wife you ever saw... so bet it! We are not going to go through this."
Realistically I know that is not me however I buy the groceries and do most of out budget so my decisions effect alot of our life style.
My FIL finds out when his sugery is on Tuesday so please be in prayer for us all. For health, being healthier, and making better decisions.
To say last week was stressful is an understatement.
I must walk by faith not by sight (2 Cor 5:7)