What to say, what to say

Wow, what a crazy couple weeks.

I cannot even begin to tell you how my view of individuals have changed since the dreaded election.

Don't groan or roll your eyes this will not be a political post I have seen too many as you have.

My heart has hurt because of the hate, arguing, division...

Boy oh boy...

That's all I got to say about that... as Forest said.

I want to make a difference. I have been thinking a lot about what that means for me.

I have a college degree and I have passion. A passion to help people.

I have been working on a project that I am really excited about and I hope to be able to get it done... I  will tell let you know when I finish.

I am hoping that something comes of it.

Thanksgiving is next week! I cannot believe that.

We have our first play practice this Sunday and we are putting up our tree afterward.

The plan was to put it up before this, but we moved to the first floor of our apartment building.

For several reasons. But that is for another post. Let's just say some people move into apartments and have a problem with apartment noise.

Moving on...

Josh and I have talked about naming the baby and how to celebrate this little life we were happy to have apart of us, even if it was just for 6 weeks and 1 day.

My heart aches to still be pregnant.

This is a very random post... sorry.

I am working on the post to let you all know who were asking about how we plan to celebrate the baby and where we are going from here ... and to write about what God did for me a couple weeks ago. God knew I needed a little extra something.

Looking forward to celebrating the holidays and eating yummy food!

Here is a little peak at us making new memories and living life in the moment...
I love this man and that little man

I love his cuddles

E and Mommy at the Vday parade

Honoring Gramps for Veterans Day

Mommy and E in the leaves



Love ,

 




Comments

  1. sleelyNovember 18, 2016 at 4:26 PM

    Your a great writer and your talent is growing more and more! I would like to see a children's book in honor of the two you lost, maybe to help little ones to understand why mommy and daddy are sad and cry sometimes. I remember what Olivia said the other day when you were combing her hair. "I can't tell Lala she was hurting my head because she just cries all the time." Otherwise she didn't want to make you cry again or hurt your feelings. How sweet is that?! Kids don't understand and feel the loss in a different way. I love you and yes, time for the holidays, food and family and friends! Put that tree up and enjoy the reason for the season! Jesus Christ is Lord!

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