What about baby #2?
Before I even had E I was asked if we wanted another child. I remember looking at these people like they had two heads! I had not even gone through my first birth... my second baby was not on my list. E's birth was traumatic and made me feel all sorts of fear and anxiousness at the thought of having a second baby. Even though I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that I meant it when I said "We will adopt, I am not going through that again", here I am. I brought the subject up to J around September. E was about to turn one and I was really feeling baby fever. The year had passed so fast. However we were just really starting to feel comfortable in our new roles as parents and dealing with how that changed our dynamic as a family of 2 to 3. At first J was extremely apprehensive. For several reasons. Good reasons. This was kind difficult to deal with. Usually J and I when it comes to big decisions are on the same page. In this instance.... we were not. So we talke...