Warning: Rant ahead
My post on here, my personal Facebook, my Instagram account almost never hold a rant. There is this stigma that really gets under my skin. I lost my baby at six weeks and one day. And I am grieving. It is hard. No that does not make my love any less for E. No his everyday smiles does not some how magically erase my broken heart. (It sure helps me smile though) No I am not reveling in the past but mourning a child... that I already had dreamed of. Made plans for. Decided on a name if it was a girl. No I am not being dramatic. If you know me at all the desire to be a mother has been strong in my heart since childhood. So to loose something you so desperately want is heartbreaking. It does not take away from my faith, or mean I don't trust in God. It does mean I am questioning and asking why? It does mean that I get angry. And feel I have been dealt ...

Thinking about you babe! I wish I could do something really special for you... lets see.. oh yeah I can lend you a tent and you and JOsh can go camping! Cool evenings and a fire, take your lawn chair and make some smores. Look at the stars and meditate on the good things in life!! Ok, when you coming to get the tent? Love ya
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ReplyDeleteI am so broke hearted that this month isn't the month. I was just thinking about y'all today, wondering if you'd have good news to report. Will keep praying and praying for you sweet girl.
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry that this wasn't the month for y'all. I pray that God blesses y'all soon with the desires of y'alls hearts! And until then, may all the glory and honor go to Him as y'all handle this situation so gracefully.
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