Aunt LaLa

What a season of trust that I have been walking through! I know these last few months I have been scarce, with good reason. I'm walking into the last part of my pregnancy. And this pregnancy has brought many trials and struggles that I did not have with my son. However the pregnancy has gone very well, and our new baby is going to be healthy. We are praying and believing that she will be healthier and have a non emergency C-section. I have been healthy, I have had to be on several medications that I was not on previously. I take several insulin injections a day, I am on hypertension medication, and other medicines. This pregnancy started out very emotional and alot of ups and downs. You can read about that here Here I am 34 weeks pregnant as I'm about to publish this post. We are having a sweet little girl... And I cannot wait. She moves all the time and I love it. I've had to rest and trust that she is going to be okay. We have dealt with many stressf...

I have a draft that I was working on at the end of January. I had every intention of filling my blog with with a post at least once a week. I had some drafts put together. At the end of January, our lives kind of took a crazy turn. One in which I was not expecting.  (long post ahead...) Little did we know this crazy turn would be an up and down emotional roller coaster. I was feeling pretty tired and sensitive, normal for me when getting close to "that" time.  I was talking to my sister and realized that I was late. About a week late. Which since having Ethan only happened once... When I was pregnant with Little Bit.  I bought a pack of two, went home. Did the test let it sit, the one line that always shows up quickly showed... So I sat it down.  Told myself it's not time, it may never be time. That's okay. We can adopt. My normal pep talk I give myself after every negative test.  I waited the appropriate time, gathered the tras...

Sometimes I want to fix. I want the people I love to do the right thing. I want them to love like I do. I want to protect them from themselves. I want them to have the love for God I do. I want.... I want....  I exhaust myself in "I want" I've been reading this book by Joyce Meyer. "The Battle Belongs to the Lord" I am only chapter two and God is really showing things to me. For one, I can not change people, circumstance, situations, events.... I am NOT God. And I exhaust my self trying to figure out "What can I DO?" I am a person of action. I want results. I hate sitting and waiting. I'll be honest in saying I am  not the most patient person. When J and I face a challenge my mind immiediatley starts to try and figure out what can I do. When I see my family suffering or making wrong choices I want to guide them and give advice. When I am having a bad day, feeling sad, disapointed... whatever... I immideiatley think "How can I ge...

The Lord is just so amazing. I love how he knows my heart better then I do. When I have no answers he has them all... I've mentioned in another post HERE  , where I talk about Pushdownism. (Its a real condition I tell ya!) So the reason I'm visiting this place is again... I'm guilty of it... again. Last night was corporate prayer. It was wonderful.  Backup a bit *BBEEEPP, BEEEP!*  =) This past weekend was filled with an array of different things. One of the major things was my little nephew Eli had to have tubes. Which is a common procedure. But obviously we all couldn't help feeling a little pins and needles. So I got to have my niece spend the night with us because the surgery was so early. Which was just a BLAST!! She is so cute! Then there is another issue I can't really go into but it is involving two persons I love dearly. I'm worry about both being harmed because of one of the persons lifestyle. AND there is nothing I can do until ...