Aunt LaLa

 Hi to all those who are reading this. It was been way too long that I have gotten on here and wrote.  I feel like this is still a viable platform for me to share my heart and also process some things in writing.  I have not really processed things in writing like I used to. Not to mention having a 9 and 5 year old really takey a lot of my energy :)  I could not however let this month go by without coming on here to honor our babies... especially after this last week.  I am just going to just jump right in.  In the beginning of September we were approached by family about the possibility of adopting a baby. I am not going to go into all the details because it is not my story to tell.  It is no secret that Josh and I have always had a heart for adoption even before our kids came along. Actually two months before I became pregnant with Ethan, we were in contact with an adoption agency.  But the Lord had a different plan.  Over the the last two years we have been praying over this very su

Look at this beautiful face. She is a miracle. This is the only time you will find her still- while she is asleep.  And she is a handful. Smile.  She is full of spunk and energy, she is so smart. She has has been going to sleep with this cute ABC book pop-up book. These past few weeks, her and I have been battling. She is headed toward the three year old mark, and frankly I feel like on some days she could be THE poster child for a text book "Threenager" When I say there has been more than one moment I've been brought to tears, I am being honest.  In fact just last week I sent Josh a text from the living room while he works in our bedroom... (while Esther was screaming like a wounded animal)  "She has defeated me" with a cute little white flag. Made a funny post about it on Facebook.  But in all honestly, I thought.... "Lord, help me. What am I going to do?" I remember going through a tough time with Ethan, but he was much different. Things that have a

 Hi everyone!  If you are still around and reading my ramblings...thank you.  I've always loved to write, not too long ago someone asked me why I never write anymore.  My immediate answer was "I just don't have the time" But really, I could make time. I think life has been CRAZY, hard, and full. I think just like everyone there has been a struggle in all of us this last year and into this year.  I have had some personal things I have worked through. Some things in my family that have been hard to navigate. My heart has grieved.  However, God has been nearer than he ever has. I have seen small and big miracles. I have seen healing. I have seen other men and women of God change before my eyes. Seeing answered prayers of people that I care about happening weekly.  I have depended on God more in the last year and a half than I ever  have. I have also experienced more freedom than I ever have spiritually.  I am just incredibly grateful. So grateful.  I was writing in a jou

Hi! It has been a minute since I have written.  I think about who and where I was when I started writing in the blog on a consistent basis in 2011. That is almost ten years!  A decade full of happiness and sorrows. Ups and downs. Mountains and Valley's.  There is so much that is going on around us in our world right now.  Fear. Anger. Sickness. Change.  I want this to be an encouraging place.  I will tell you why... Because I am about Jesus. Only Jesus.  I want people to see him in me.  "I want so of much him in me, that there is no room for me in me" So.. I am going to start writing about the miracles I have seen. The things I have seen with my own eyes that God has done.  Because...  In Philippians 4:8 it says... Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. I need this too.. I need to

I was interviewed in October 2013 by WVLT when I organized a balloon release in memory of our sweet babies and to offer a place of healing for parents, family, and friends. Even though you may not hear that parent talk about their babies they lost, the thought of them is not far from their heart. I'm thankful for the healing God has done in my life and my heart. But I miss my two babies in Heaven terribly. I hold them dear to my heart. October is pregnancy and infant loss awareness month and the 15th is PAIL Day. So, Tuesday October 15th at 6:30pm, Josh and I will release balloons for our two sweet babies. Hope (May 2012) and Sarah (September 2016) If you are are local, your welcome to join us with your balloon. Or if you would like I will write your baby's name on a balloon to release. You can leave the name in the comments, or private message me. Know that if you are grieving your sweet baby, you are not alone. And having other children does not diminish your love for y

I am so overcome with emotion! Like that bubbly feeling you feel and your just not sure what to do with your self? Through much prayer I accepted a role at my local church as the Children's Pastor. I’ve always loved children, and am looking forward to all that God is going to do through our ministry team! One of the main and most important job is teach these children about JESUS. Jesus died for you and for me. So that we may receive forgiveness of our sin through Jesus Christ, so that we can spend eternity with God. We are about Jesus and God’s truth in our house. E has asked many questions and we have many discussions about Jesus. I was teaching a couple weeks ago (July 10, 2019), and it E was the only one in my class at the time. We started talking about how God can change a situation that does not look that great, if we allow the Holy Spirit to help us to see things differently. I told him that Jesus saved us from our sins so that we co