Aunt LaLa

Worry is an exhausting thing. It can really drain you of energy. There are many things going on right now. One of the main things is we need prayer for my in-laws. My father-in-law will be going into surgery tomorrow morning for a stint in his heart. He has blockage and they are expecting things to go well. These are the times where J being an only child is difficult. Not because I begrudge having to help my in-laws and be there for them. On the contrary, if J had 12 siblings nothing would keep me from being there for them when they needed me. It is just when we you have more family that is supportive the better and stronger you feel. However, the four of us will stand together tomorrow in prayer for a safe surgery and great recovery. I know God will be there for us to give us strength. I can see God's hand in this. It is making J realize that he needs to take better care of himself. It gives me more ambition to push J and myself. My FIL will be "out of commission...

Josh and I have not been able to find a couple that lives around us that we connect really well with that are around our age. We have great people in our life! But we just never found that "Hangout" couple. I have kept in touch with one of my friends from my late teens. We have been friends for almost 10 years now! A few months ago we finally made plans to get together so that our husbands could meet. They of course hit it off immediately! They have so much in common! Since then we have hung out quite often! So over at Happy Wives club  Fawn wrote a post about a very cool idea her and her husband friends do for fun! So I'm joining in :) J and I are your pretty average couple! So is our friends S and Jo! We all love games! J, S, and Jo love playing games on various game consoles... I do sometimes. I just do not have the skills LOL! Board games have been quite a riot with all 4 of us! I think I have to say my favorite thing was dancing to Michea...

 has been a while since I've  apart of What I'm loving Wednesday and today just feels like a good day :) I'm loving my new hair cut!  I'm loving  my husband (as always) I'm loving that I'm only 7 classes away from graduating!! I'm loving my niece and nephews I'm loving  that I'm getting to swim almost once a week:) I'm loving my Jesus!  Have a great Wednesday!  Staying Hopeful, Aunt LaLa

Fawn over at Happy Wives Club wrote an great post about one of my favorite subjects. Perspective. This one word I think could change all relationships and situations for yourself as well as others. But today's focus is on marriage. When J and I first began to get serious (hehe which was on our 5th date) we both came from different backgrounds, upbringings, and beliefs about all sorts of things. We had so much in common, but we had somethings that needed to be worked on. One of the things I had to learn was to see things from J's perspective. We all have our own way of doing things. And in a marriage a main tool to use is compromise. J was an only child, I am a middle child. So you can imagine the different roles we each play in our families. J was completely and totally spoiled by his parents. He was /is their life. So when we got married J was not accustomed to "Helping" around the house. Or making sure things we taken care of.  His mom i...

 Fathers Day approaches I'm not sure what hurts worse. Another holiday to remind us of the hole we carry around. Or seeing my husband suffer. I know he is hurting. Honestly it makes my heart break into a million pieces to see him hurt. There are no words I can say to take away his pain. Nothing I can do to relieve his pain. I do understand what he is feeling. All the questions, thoughts, and emotion. I'm reminded of my last post. I can't do anything. Only Good can give the peace that we both look for everyday we are with out our baby. Dads suffer too when a baby is lost. They feel a connection to that child just we do... it may be different but there is one. Men also express this differently. J doesn't show what he feels like I do... but the hole is there all the same. J, I love you. Thank you for taking care of me and providing for our family. I'm sorry your suffering and I know you are hurting. One day I know we will be parents... and you my love will be...

Sometimes I want to fix. I want the people I love to do the right thing. I want them to love like I do. I want to protect them from themselves. I want them to have the love for God I do. I want.... I want....  I exhaust myself in "I want" I've been reading this book by Joyce Meyer. "The Battle Belongs to the Lord" I am only chapter two and God is really showing things to me. For one, I can not change people, circumstance, situations, events.... I am NOT God. And I exhaust my self trying to figure out "What can I DO?" I am a person of action. I want results. I hate sitting and waiting. I'll be honest in saying I am  not the most patient person. When J and I face a challenge my mind immiediatley starts to try and figure out what can I do. When I see my family suffering or making wrong choices I want to guide them and give advice. When I am having a bad day, feeling sad, disapointed... whatever... I immideiatley think "How can I ge...

It seems like forever that I have done Friday's Letters! So getting back into the blogger mode...   Dear Work, I enjoy you but I'm looking forward to the month of July :) Dear J, I'm glad your feeling better Dear C, LaLa is on her way sweetie... can't wait to meet you and give you tons of kisses! Dear JJ, LaLa and Joshy can't wait to see you! You getting so big! Dear M, We are just too awesome Dear J, You have my heart. Dear God, You are moving. And teaching. And molding. I love you. Setting up at the flea market for the first time tomorrow! It will truly be a learning experience and I can not wait to see all the different people that will be there! I'm sure to come back with some stories! Maybe a what to do and not to do at a flea market? We shall see. Have a fabulous weekend! Staying Hopeful,  Aunt LaLa