TORNADO!!

spinning spinning spinning spinning spinning....

Thats what my mind feels like when I look over this past year! I can not believe how fast this year has gone by!! 

The ups and downs of this year... the changes... the storms.. 

There are some things that are about to change... I just feel the change...

One of those things is Josh and I's daily habits. Our eating is going to change. We are joining a gym. We want to be healthy. We are both getting older and even at 26 (almost 27) I can see different things in my own body... What a trip that is! 

I'm so looking forward to the 15th. We will be honoring our precious Hope and others that have been lost. Will it be emotional. Yes. But I'm not doing this for healing for myself, I'm doing this for others. I want these women to find some healing. I know that this is something God has ordered my steps toward. 

I cannot wait to share with you. I promise there will be pictures. So many of you have uplifted me and encouraged me! I can't even express how loved and supported I have felt. 

God is changing my heart people. I'm growing. He has is opening my eyes to things that need to be purged from me so that I may grow closer to him. 

There are times in our life that we must sit back and trust. We cannot change it. We cannot move it. We cannot fix it. 

2 Chronicles 20:1-30.... The Battle is not ours but the LORDS! 

I'm working on giving it to him... 


Comments

  1. sleelyOctober 9, 2012 at 10:36 AM

    Your looking back on this last year and yes, so many ups and downs, life is spinning!! Tornado for sure!! I feel like that with my whole life, since most of it is behind me now. LOL! But I am NOT sad, I've lived, I've learned, I've loved, I've seen miracles, I've had grief, but God has never left me!! Praise the Lord!! He is with you too!! Two meanings here, HE gave you both HOPE! Praise God!!

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  2. kathy, memaw, momOctober 9, 2012 at 4:29 PM

    It amazes me how God uses all things to his glory. yes this year has been full of changes, storms and eye opening things, and it all is for his glory. I am happy about the 15th and I want to help all of you that have lost a little angel. love you lala and you are the best daughter ever

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